Fuzzy's Farm

[silver1313]

wasnt so much darn colder up there id consider MI a place to move to

 

[Mom 2em All]

Thanks all-

and hopefully my son one day will choose to live his life the right way to manage, but for now he is all about self-medicating himself with all the wrong things, and alcohol, etc is what his 'cure' is; SO, because he is my son- I am here when he beats himself in the head, or with the tree- and yells and freaks out...and my daughter doesnt do that stuff to herself-
but the worst thing I did to her was take away her horse-back riding lessons. She had her 'reason' there, and loved every second of riding. However, it cost three hundred dollars a month for lessons, and was financially impossible for me to continue past three months; I was financially strapped.
She loves art and polymer clay and painting and drawing- but as of now, no. She is so depressed, and its terrible.

 

[RBahmer]

Hi all-

I will first talk about chickens so that this is an on-topic post:

I moved the Uggos out of the brooder today and into a rabbit hutch with ramp, and an x-pen yard.

First thing that happened was this- one of those bossy d'uccles flew right in!!! And started attackin the babies.
SO,, I ran out there- was watching from my bathroom window- and then I chased that d'uccle around so much trying to catch her- I wore myself out.
I hung a heat lamp in the rabbit hutch- then when I got home from work, I plucked each goofy baby who was sleeping UNDER the hutch, and put them inside and locked them up.
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Now the real reason I am posting.
My daughter is epileptic and everyone knows it. She was put on new meds three weeks ago because her other meds werent working any longer- her seizures had progressed from stare-off kind to grand mal to grand mal that needed valium to stop. She also has been very mood swingy very similar to my son who is bipolar. Well, the new meds three weeks in, no more seizures but she is SO different. Super anger, then crying- changes in swings so much within MINUTES- however, mainly crying and sitting on her bed. Ask her whats wrong, and she doesnt know.
She had her EEG today,, and the tech doing her eeg at one point got up and ran out of the room. It was the longest eeg ever- way over an hour and it never lasts that long. The neuro talked to me afterward and his statement was the eeg was "bad abnormal". He said the meds are stopping her body from seizing but her brain is continually seizing. He quadrupled her medication dose and added another pill. I really am still absorbing all of it,but he also confirmed the bipolar diagnosis. I know God doesnt give us more than we can handle, but sometimes I think he overestimates me. My son is hard HARD to handle and just moved back home, and now this with her- well, its rough.
I am really worried about my girl. I feel pretty helpless, actually.

Okay- end on a chicken note. UMMMMMMMM, Im giving Robin my mean duccles. lol.

Kim - if there is anything I can do to help you know my number. Even if you just want to talk give a call.

My roo is fine. He came out from hiding this morning.

 

[RBahmer]

When you avoid processed foods, you are really eliminating those mood altering chemicals that they put into the food. MSG's are very very bad for persons with BP. Fast foods are as well. But the MSGs, HFCS, synthesized sugars... All of those chemicals alter the receptors in the brain and its ability to function properly. FDA and USDA say no, but there is plenty of proof. There is also plenty of proof linking vaccines to increase brain abnormalities. I did not get my kids vacs at all. I do not see why you'd introduce that crap at two months old when birth to 5 is the most critical time for brain development. I chose to not have them for the boys to give their brains a chance to develop normally and hope to avoid the BP. I can hope.

I don't buy foods with MSG. I find I get very cranky and snap very quickly when I don't get enough sleep, have to much "junk" drinks, or if I eat to many fast foods... Being in the car alot, I admit I do. When I notice it, I lay off. BUT I am addicted too, to it, so then it is even worse when I want to go so badly to get McDs and I know I shouldn't. I literally vibrate with a want for it for days until it is out of the system. I have a butt to prove it too. And All I get is a hamburger and fry, cuz I am cheap. BUT I JUST GOTTA HAVE IT! LOL.

The worse moment my I had with my dad was when I went to fetch him from his long walk. I caught up with him a mile before he got to the lake. He was going to go and drown himself. He couldn't shoot himself, we had already gotten rid of the guns. I know he was thankful weeks afterwards... But at the time, it was a real struggle. Aiden, my youngest, when he came along, my dad had some one to live for. Not kidding. He loved Aiden with a passion. Aiden just about died being born. My dad was in the delivery room with me, yeah, and he was in the corner praying. Aiden was the reason my dad admitted himself so many times to the psych ward. So he'd get better, adjust his meds when needed. Keep himself under control. If the heart attack hadn't taken him from us 2 years ago this month, I think he may have been a much happier person because of Aiden. But the nearly two years that he had with my baby really made a difference. He was able to find happiness, and when he got very depressed he was able to bounce back easier because he had something of importance to him to bounce back for.

I think that's what I have with my chickens. They make me giggle everyday. No matter what kind of mood I am in, I know when I go out there, they are all going to come up. Some to get picked up, all for treats, all to see what the heck I am going to do now.

I hope your girl has something like this. Something that she has that will help to keep her grounded, here. It'll take a bit, but she can learn to live with it. She can learn to grow and function with it. And I know she's got great support. She's got you, the greatest love in her life. It'll be OK. Some how it will be ok.

 

[Mom 2em All]

Kim - if there is anything I can do to help you know my number. Even if you just want to talk give a call.

My roo is fine. He came out from hiding this morning.

Thank you, friend. I know that.

AND YAYYYYYYYYY for your roo. Did you see where he was hiding?

 

[RBahmer]

No wonder we all get along so well .. and relate so well .. and maybe there a bp chicken addict connection .. i call tiny my therapy animal lol



She has been fussing at us for 3 hours straight now even though she is out and free to raom ..shes been cooped up more than usual as we have been busier so now that she has free reins she is just chicken cussing at all of us ...

I don't have bi-polar. I am just plain mean LOL

 

[RBahmer]

Thanks all-

and hopefully my son one day will choose to live his life the right way to manage, but for now he is all about self-medicating himself with all the wrong things, and alcohol, etc is what his 'cure' is; SO, because he is my son- I am here when he beats himself in the head, or with the tree- and yells and freaks out...and my daughter doesnt do that stuff to herself-
but the worst thing I did to her was take away her horse-back riding lessons. She had her 'reason' there, and loved every second of riding. However, it cost three hundred dollars a month for lessons, and was financially impossible for me to continue past three months; I was financially strapped.
She loves art and polymer clay and painting and drawing- but as of now, no. She is so depressed, and its terrible.

I remember her saying that Kim. So sad you don't live around me, she could ride everyday. Heck, I would even get her her own horse.

 

[RBahmer]

Thank you, friend. I know that.

AND YAYYYYYYYYY for your roo. Did you see where he was hiding?

I believe he was underneath the Bantam/Andalusion house.

 

[NovaAman]

Is it morning already!? I gotta pre. I hope John hurries....

 

[NovaAman]

Darn chicken! It is so weird... How they seem to be able to find the grandest places to hide over nite...