I am tired.
Mom is not good. I took her to my doctor- and well, they sort of freaked out. They did and ECG which showed she has a right bundle branch block- meaning the electrical signal that tells the right side of your heart to squeeze, is blocked. That with this ridiculous swelling in her right leg from hip to foot- he said to go to the ER immediately, ask for Dr Michaels. He wanted her admitted.
WELL, let me tell you about Medicare. They did an ultrasound AGAIN- no blood clot in her leg. They wouldnt admit her. Medicare guidelines would not let her be admitted. She is weak. She is in excruciating pain. She is difficult to lift and help walk- because I am decrepit. And she has no strength. But MEDICARE gets to call the shots. So, I got her propped up on her couch- promised I would come do all her house and yard chores this morning. HOPED AGAINST all hope that my family would pitch in and help me. But I forgot Kayla was staying at my stepdaughters. My husband announced that he was going to be working on Tiffanys car this morning, and my son ...well, my son and his buddies were still up playing video games when I woke up this morning at 5:15. My son has just now gone to bed. Not gonna be helping me, obviously, when I head over to my moms in an hour.
Thank God I can count on Tiff to help.
Now. I went out and fed the chickens in the dark. I heard some sort of whimper sound...snuffle sound maybe. I was so scared. Pitch black. No light. Because I am dumb. I said, "please dont be a skunk.." and "Get the hell away from my coop" at the same time. Then I heard whatever it was run off through the leaves...sounded like it was going away from me.
I went in to hunt a flashlight. Poor birds. I havent seen them in days. I fill feed and water in the dark. I have been caring for my mom sun up to sun down. Im exhausted. Well, out come my four showgirls...wait...one two three four....wheres five? I looked in the coop. THen with flashlight, I searched every single inch of the yard, the garage, the fence line. Missing my little show girl.
Came in- woke my husband up- said, "Im so PI$$@d- ,I cant find one of my chickens." He said, "No you wont be able to, I cleaned it up yesterday morning" Of course I turned my anger toward him, "You didnt tell me???" You were so upset about your mom, I didnt want to tell you. Figured I would tell you this morning before you went out."
Well. Whatever it is that is having chicken for breakfast was back this morning and almost got themselves another one.
And Im pretty sure one of my chickens is sneezing, Sounded like a chicken sneeze or cough. I need to wait until the sun is up.
As bad as I feel, I can only do what I can do. I have to put my mom first. She is completely dependent on me right now. Im coming down sick- I have to make sure I dont give my mom bronchitis or pneumonia or whatever ailment is brewing in my head and chest right now.
This afternoon is my little grandsons birthday party. I may not make it over there.
This is also my little nephews birthday- the one my brother took away and fell off the earth with. Havent seen him in two years. I miss my nephew. bad. I was missing my brother yesterday but then I just got mad. My other brother lives in Colorado and has been real worried. I have been keeping him posted and letting him know that I got everything under control. Being the big sister. always.
Arent you sad you asked me how it was going now?
