G.W. and L.W. changed my life...will the guilt and loss ever leave me and sweet memories remain..I s

gwmom

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Well I hope a true bird lover will read my post and understand...part of my heart is gone..and I don't think I will ever get it back...her is my story.... 19 days ago I was out in the country with my grandbabies and we just filled up a small pool for my grandson....he never really got a cud swim in..because to our delight two mallard ducks come waddling around the corner and without hesitation or concern for their safety amongst strangers...took the pool over...lol...oh and the fun they were having..ha ha....I myself have never experienced a bird swimming and having such great fun like they were...never been exposed to bird behavior...never

knew they had such whimsical oil personalities. I asked my honey what we should name them and he jokingly said long gone..lol.. long one is long and other one gone..so we called them...L.W. and G.W. we quickly found out l.w. was a heads down...i'm gonna chase yard if u get to close to my friend type..but after a nice little chat..he why look at yard and then at g.w..and they wud walk away all gud. Lol...it didn't take long to realize we were in the 19 percent....of male duck hook ups... sadly I didn't get the chance to really get to know l.w. he disappeared one night..I saw them walk away at dusk..and only one came back distraught...g.w. :(... so we decided at that point we wud do what we cud to ease the pain. I MUST TELL YOU....I SO FELL ON IN LOVE. G.W. MOURNED AND CALLED OUT TO HIS MATE WITH NO AVAIL.We made sure gw was well taken care of..and it seemed his spirits were picking up. I never knew much about ducks..googled a lot..but could not figure out why two mallard wud show up so care free..like little humans...it didn't take long to fall in love w g.w. ducks have no problem showing love..they say they have emotions and such..I saw the comedian..when he wud fall slide off the side of pool and tumble..he had us wrapped around that little curl on his butt..lol...he'll..I was jumping n front of cars to protect him...my ole man..sat outside all night w him once saved him from a cat..chased the cat and fell on his face..the duck was gonna but let him take the task over..lol
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..one time he decided he was going to take a walk..did I say him..I meant us...lol..so me and my ole man an g.w. take off down the road...he was determined to Cross the street..and go into the neighbors yard..he acted like he knew where he was going and they said he did..so I told my ole man let him go..he was safe so we turned to go back..lol I look back and hes waddling running...lol....wait for me....we waited..me in front him in the middle and the ole man bringing up the rear..back to the house we come with a happy content duck...that took us for a stroll..in his pool he goes...lol so cute..It was love..who cud know? He loved us every day we wud feed him clean his pool water him..we tried to get him down the road to a safe environment..but he flew back to us... my heart melted and wanted to see no harm come to him.I spent so much time w him..all the time I cud..we saved him many times...here it gets hard to write..after trying to figure out what we cud do to better keep him safe and hitting ground zero..he wudnot have liked his freedoms removed...there came a night...It was going to storm and it was getting late..I walked out to check on him..he sat by the side of the house..we put his pool in the corner and a cot he could hid under for we saw hawks.. cats etc..our hands were tied..that night when I went to go bbc.co on him..he wud talk . Our cat in the window..he saw me and started quacking loud.. I thought he was being happy..but in fact :( in hind sight I think was saying mom ...there is a predator..that night there was a storm..car doing a burn out and I thought I heard water sloshing....I worried the whole next day....we found him..our little whimsical man...wings only the rest eaten..and his mate..a coon grabbed him....omg I have felt so much guilt.cried cried...come to find out..the neighbor guy took them when they were chicks..grew tired of them at eight months old released them...it was thier death sentence.
 
I MISS THEM..I FEEL LIKE I LOST A CHILD. MAYBE SOMEONE SHOULD START A DUCK BEREAVEMENT SITE AND A SITE..WHERE PEOPLE LIKE ME..KNOW WHAT TO DO..IN SUCH CASES..I FEEL LIKE I FAILED HIM...
 
I CAN't help to replay that moment over and over in my head..when I walked out onto the porch to check on him..he saw me lifted his head high in the air and started quacking so loud...and at our pet Cat in the window..they loved to watch each other..I though gw was just being happy..and never knew how domesticated he was..I played how I cud have takenhim in over n my head a thousand times :( we have three cats..that look he gave me..like mommy come get me...I Wil see it forever.....I loved that bird..he stole my heart. Do coins drown ducks..I think he drowned my duck..I will see that kid.maybe he thought they wud adapt..I was hoping gw wud fly in approaching danger...he is with hi is mate..but I lost a companion as well...I spent all my vacation time w him..and loved it..was minnow bound soon...I hope they come to visit me n heaven....when its my time..and they know how much I loved them. :( thank u for ur replay no one understands....I needed to hear its not my fault..I just having been able to let go
 
Thank you...u know...this place was like Disney land with him here..he kept us hopping..and boy was he entertaining...my boyfriend says i'm terrorizing myself by continually wondering what would have happened if I would have walked out...I have him on my mind always..the worse thing about loving him so much is the huge void I feel..I guess i'm selfish..cause. I know because he was in the country and domesticated he did'nt stand a chance..I never knew someone could feel like a duck was like a little person....what a great lil man he was....:(I want him back...I wish I wud have walked out.....I now hate racoons!
 
Yes they did..it was a younger kid 23 or so...suppose he thought it kewl to own two ducks..either he assume they wud ad adapt ..but he knew one went missing..:( I dont thing he cared...it was a death sentence what he did..the part that breaks my heart is even though we loved him..we didnt save him..I didnt know what to do...
 

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