Its time for you to get out and find your own path. You should be surronded by folks like yourself. Also, you'll find yourself better where people don't allready know you, or think they know you. Its hard to change patterns at home, but the instant I moved out and was truly away from the folks, I got better. I made friends who I liked to be with. (Although, I only have a few close friends at a time) I've always been the type of friend who shows up at will, to people very happy to see me, but I'm never where they can find me. I prefer to visit and socialize on my own comfort terms, if that makes sense. I just try to be foon and cool and not so serious (always, anyway) that they are delighted to see me. Which makes me feel better and keeps me coming back. If I lose confidence in a freinds, forget it, its over.
