Granny's gone and done it again

Well. She had breast cancer. Kicked it’s butt. It went into remission for something like sixteen years. Came back. Dual Mastectomy. Chemo. Thought they had it. It came back. Chemo. Pretty much told it was terminal back then (this was a few years back). Got a line on a surgery from a specialist in Toronto. Thought they got it all and she was good. Before the surgery she was already debating her assisted end of life options since she thought that was it. The surgery gave her new hope.

It came back. More chemo. Radiation. Treatments. Now into her lungs and bones. Life in general was not pleasant for her, and even the morphine wasn’t helping the pain.

hard choice and yeah. How do you deal but I think it would be easier on the fam too knowing WHEN and not being afraid of waking up next to a corpse, or the guilt of “what if I came home earlier/didn’t fall asleep/could I have helped or she was all alone” and not living in fear of That Call.

sigh. Bosses are back tomorrow. Was a nice respite while I had it.
One of my coworkers knows what’s going on - my early morning crew field soops. One of my other coworkers figured out something is up but I didn’t share and he doesn’t press. “Somethings up with you other than this prevailing wage crap” yep but I can gripe about PW.

sigh. Spoke with sibling tonight. She backed me with dad when he mentioned that I already yelled at him. (I didn’t yell. I spoke firmly.)

ugh. Cramps are starting up. Let’s add insult to injury eh Mother Nature? Well. At least this means I’ll be done with it for my pre thanksgiving wax appointment.
 

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