Granny's gone and done it again

[Cynthia12]

I have Cynthia. He did recommend a few support groups, but so far I already have therapy and go to my school's wellness center. I still have ups and downs of course, but its a direction, not a destination. Church helps me too, though I can tell this whole depression thing has weakened my faith. I don't mention it a lot, but i'd say its something that affects me the most. I take "religion" pretty seriously and its makes me sad. I miss what I used to have. Wonder if that makes sense. I hope it does.

Makes sense. Depression can take so many different things away from us. I know when I'm down I need to make an effort to talk with Him. It's like I feel guilty for being down.. like it's my fault. I should know better. Well, I really do know that it isn't my fault. It's just at that moment.. or days of being down that bring the false feelings. I've decided to talk anyway. It helps bring me out of something that I know is trying to beat me down and away from where I should be. I know, easier said than done. But it does help. I may still be down for a while, but not as bad.

 

[cherrynberry]

well at least you named him right then.

Yeah, I was actually praying on a boy since Hazel is the only one I can keep a buck from, and still have it be worth it (the other three does ALL share the same dad). BUT, I also know that some people always castrate males from first fresheners. Idk why, but maybe Cap does. I'm gonna ask around, but I hope to be able to keep him as a breeding buck. Hazel comes from great lines, so these guys are promising.

 

[BigBlueHen53]

I have Cynthia. He did recommend a few support groups, but so far I already have therapy and go to my school's wellness center. I still have ups and downs of course, but its a direction, not a destination. Church helps me too, though I can tell this whole depression thing has weakened my faith. I don't mention it a lot, but i'd say its something that affects me the most. I take "religion" pretty seriously and its makes me sad. I miss what I used to have. Wonder if that makes sense. I hope it does.

Faith is not a feeling, my friend. It is a conviction. A belief that God is Who He says He is, regardless of how we feel. He cannot lie, so you can trust Him.

 

[cherrynberry]

Makes sense. Depression can take so many different things away from us. I know when I'm down I need to make an effort to talk with Him. It's like I feel guilty for being down.. like it's my fault. I should know better. Well, I really do know that it isn't my fault. It's just at that moment.. or days of being down that bring the false feelings. I've decided to talk anyway. It helps bring me out of something that I know is trying to beat me down and away from where I should be. I know, easier said than done. But it does help. I may still be down for a while, but not as bad.

Thank you Cynthia. You said it well. Sometimes I just feel so guilty. I so badly wish I could time travel back in time...to before this all happened. I want to find that motivation again. Lately, the song: "Let Her Go" has been more and more relatable...its so hard to appreciate things in the moment.

 

[cherrynberry]

Oh and Granny. I've been wanting to ask you for a while. You liked Stephan King books right? I have seen several in my school library but have been scared to try them. What are they about...generally? I don't like anything regarding ghosts or fantasy creatures...is that what his horror books are about?? I mostly read historical fiction or realistic fiction, but kinda want to try different genres, since I am pretty bad at comprehensive reading/writing.

 

[cherrynberry]

Well, have school tmrw, so signing off now. Granny, I hope they get your bathroom done just as they promised. Thank you Blue and Cynthia, I definitely need to work on prioritizing that again. Goodnight everyone!

 

[BigBlueHen53]

Shudder. Stephen King gives me nighmares!

 

[Bonkerelli]

Congrats Bonk!!

Thanks.

 

[BigBlueHen53]

Good night Cherry!

 

[Granny Hatchet]

Oh and Granny. I've been wanting to ask you for a while. You liked Stephan King books right? I have seen several in my school library but have been scared to try them. What are they about...generally? I don't like anything regarding ghosts or fantasy creatures...is that what his horror books are about?? I mostly read historical fiction or realistic fiction, but kinda want to try different genres, since I am pretty bad at comprehensive reading/writing.

All of his books have weird endings and they are pretty scary but full of fantasy and spooks. You never seen IT with the killer clown?