I am very sorry to read about your amazing friend. You gave him a wonderful life and made the bravest decision for him. Its also the kindest decision you will ever make. Its ok to cry, but remember all those amazing times you and he shared. Wherever our Spirit goes once we finally die, be assured that he will be waiting for you. Of that I am sure.
I have had to make that final trip with several cats over the years.
Our sweet little Timothy, (a b/w semi-longhaired 7 month old kitten who looks no more that 3 months), has to have blood tests on Wednesday because he is both so little and light weight. I am dreading hearing the results. He has 1 litter sister and 1 litter brother, plus his 2 adopted brothers and 1 adopted sister.
Thank you for being brave enough to share with all of us.