AlilSassy
Songster
Well today is a tough one I'm not gunna lie. We decided to process today. For the first time well of course when we went out to do it the first time it started to downpour.
Take two. Everything is ready and DH2B is doing the deed on the first bird right now while I watch the water in the house. So grateful to him for this. I'm just not ready yet for that part. Maybe later tonight or next time we'll see. I'm grateful to these birds and excited to try the meat we've raised. I'm also a bit melancholy but I know they've had good lives and this is for the best. I'm also excited about the peace this will continue to give our flock as more and more spare cockerals come of age and get processed.
Wish we had some of you all here to guide us and make sure we do this right. We've watched very many videos and DH2B is a kind and gentle man. He will make this as calm fast and painful for these boys. Still I feel a bit guilty that this first time he is out there alone.
My thought on your hubby(I'm assuming that's DH2B) is that if this is bothering him at all, or if he is sensitive to you and how you feel, then you not being there may be a gift to him. It makes it easier to separate th feeling that might hinder the job before him, or possibly make a passing (cull) botched... For me, solitude on taking my birds lives is easier than if someone was there... For now. I still tear up thinkin on it. It's not a bad thing to care, you might respect what you're getting from their gift of life and then death more. Thank you for sharing. *hugs*