I'm happy to hear she laid an egg.I feel like I want to give up. I work so hard to research and give them the best and I keep having something happen with them.
This is a normal feeling. Many here have experienced a similar experience. Our first year with chickens was fraught with one disaster after another; one death after another and another - 10 birds in the first year - myriad of issues and illnesses including Marek's. I was going to quit because I felt like a failure for the birds and I felt I was in a constant state of grief. Just bad beginners luck I guess. Indoctrination I told myself. Keep pushing. You have what it takes. Just work through the issues one at a time and stay with it. Each incident / illness is an opportunity for you to learn; that was my approach. Better days are ahead for you and your flock. You have a strong support system here with BYC.
