How can I forgive myself for killing her.

[ourlittleflock]

so sorry!!!

 

[dieselgrl48]

So sorry about your loss.I have stepped on actualy a couple here young one's in coop's and hubby another and my daughter accidently backed over one with car.But At that point We had ton's of bird's here.It happen's sometime's.Don't give up on raising your bird's.You sound like you have a lot of patience and love for them.I just lost one of my silkie hen's this week and blame myself because I was so tired and hubby got them up and one hen was left out because he didn't know how many was supposed to be in coop.Think skunk got her cause smelled one bad last night.I've lost bird's to predator's, dog's, lost chicks for no reason and unhatched egg's and blamed myself for a lot but...I am refreshing my all new stock this year and have lost a couple but think about the one's that survive. Huggg'z to ya and plz don't give up.

 

[buildingmyark]

I'm so sorry to hear about that. Almost made me cry just reading your story. I can't imagine. Prayers for you!

 

[RainbowBirds_of_a_Feather]

I am so sorry about your loss!!!

But do not give up on your birds!! We all make mistakes but we can always grow from them. Please do not be so hard on yourself. It is like my Nana said to me before she passed. She said you keep on going never give up. Change this pain you feel into a new strength to care for the next generation. You can do it!! You have BYC here to support you. You can do it!!

We are here for YOU!!!!

 

[dawg53]

I feel your pain and am sorry this happened to you. I was recently dusting one one of my favorite black star hens in my lap when she all of a sudden jumped off my lap. I instinctively caught her by her right leg and put her back on my lap. When I put her down on the ground she hobbled off on her left leg, holding her right leg up. This happened a month ago and she still hobbles on one leg. I keep her in a cage in the garage and she gets special treatment. I'm still feeling guilty, angry and sad about what I did. I'm afraid I've permanently crippled her, however she'll be living the good life til she dies. She has layed me an egg every day since the incident. I'm not giving up chickening, I love them too much.

 

[chickensioux]

I am so, so sorry for your loss. She was loved and she knew that.

 

[kelseygirl707]

Ok guys, it's a new day, and DH has made me promise to put yesterday in the past, and to keep going with chickens. I am still really sad that Kevin is gone, and still mad at myself for being the cause, but I will clean out her brooder today, and move the polish chicks over to it, because it is like 3 times the size of the one they are in now. I am expecting 10 BLRW eggs to hatch on the 13th, and 3 goose eggs to hatch on the 20th, plus I am hoping to hold the Northern California Chicken Stock at my in-laws place, so If they choose my place, I'll get to work on planning that. I ordered some Prints of Kevin last night, so I will frame them to hang in my brooder room, so I can remember her adorable little little Fuzz Butt forever!

Thank you guys sooo much, I am soo luck to be a part of suck a wonderful group.

 

[mlove]

I'm so sorry. Accidents happen and your baby had a wonderful life while it was here. My son tripped over our 7 week old silkie last week and two days later it passed. I was so sad and felt so guilty because it was one of my favorites and I felt like I put it in danger while my boys were playing outside. You sound like a great chicken mom and it would be a shame if you did not keep any more chicks.

 

[JoAnn_WI_4-H_Mom]

Don't give up! Think of all the things you have done RIGHT for that bird, not the one bad thing. Bad things happen and you have to forgive yourself and keep growing and learning. I hate it that pain is so often a part of learning.

and good luck with those new babies!

 

[Penturner]

Have you ever heard what they say about falling off Horses? That hurts also. I am very sorry for you though. I have one White Japanese Bantam right now that has got a pretty good hold on me. I know better cause I am not at all new to critters and all. but sometimes one comes along that is just different. They are an experience. You don't make it happen, you can't make it happen. But to give up means you prevent any such events from happening again. You take what your special chick brought to your life and consider it a blessing. No it has not lasted forever but it was a blessing. Grief takes time and it is not wise to make decisions while in it. Give yourself some time and then see where you are with keeping chickens.