It's kinda sad and well it makes me sad anyhow. In the book East of Eden Mr. Hamilton relates to a mans life as either being good or being bad. He states that a good life is one where the world is worse off when you die, and a bad life is one where the world is better off when you die. Now I suspect that most have better lives than they realize. In fact I'm pretty sure at my age this is true, but here's a couple of lives I'm not so sure about. When my MIL (dw aunt) died, there were very few "friends" who came to her wake. She was a mean old woman who never was willing to give or do anything for anyone. Her husband was the same. Holidays only involved DW and her sister and the kids. She only had one brother and things weren't good between them or his ornery wife. Truth is it was more her than him. In fact for a period of time we didn't even go to the in laws cuz MIL complained that DW ruined her Easter by going into labor for our youngest. That was the one thing that DW got upset about. There were other things but I guess DW had had enough. Nothing I said could change her mind. One thing I know is don't get between your spouse and their family. My FIL had passed a year before to the same wake situation. We had to pay pall bearers for each of them. So there sat DW, her sister, me and our 13 yr old son. for the entire two hours and no one came. It was a sad commentary for a life. Which brings me to the most recent story. DW was out for lunch with some of the church ladies and saw a woman that looked familiar. She didn't recognize her til she was leaving. Apparently the woman didn't approach DW first though she recognized her. Well as it turned out it was DW's best friend from high school. This friend once said to DW that she could have done better , in regards to her marrying me, which of course I took as a slam, but that was more than 35 years ago. Now I knew that this woman had cheated on her first and only husband and was divorced and that money was a priority. She was always working for the money and good life according to how she saw things. She eventually had one son by I don't know who, later in life. He's in college now. Her parents of course have passed on and the business that she invested so much of her life into has gone belly up. The roof apparently collapsed and the insurance company won't pay the nearly 1 million dollars to fix it so it went into foreclosure. She's now in a business that she hates and I'm certain doesn't pay well. In talking with this woman she told DW that she regrets her choices and wishes she had more children, cuz family is important. So what's my point? You may look around and think what you are and have isn't much compared to some, but your living a "good" life. Don't matter whether your skinny or fat, straight or gay, ugly or handsome/ pretty. You can still live a "good" life. No one can stop you from living a "good" life. Now I do miss my MIL and I kinda think she was coming around but time ran out. She had a heart attack. If your still kickin and you need to make changes you still got time. I know most everyone here is nice, but that's cuz you ain't with me twenty four seven. I just thought you should know. Counting my blessings, Rancher Hicks.