I just found two more dead, I'm losing it. Update post #32.

[chickengrl]

Good to hear the roomates are being sensitive. It can help lots if they are supportive. Maybe it will help them realize how important your birds are to you and how difficult things have been for you too. Having a therapist can help so much with sorting through things. They can give you that insight from someone not in the middle of everything. Make things easier to see so to speak. More hugs and good thoughts sent to you. We will be here to listen.

 

[elizabethbinary]

thank you everyone.

Anna, I didn't read what you wrote before I made it. I decided to put booze in it. I prefer my choice at the moment.

They are being lovely. My husband is being responsible and reorganizing my schedule for me so I can stay home and focus on my three-day shiva I've allowed myself. It's so cleansing, it really does help.

Edit: If I may take a half-drunken mopey moment and say... even if I do have a lot of troubles in my life, there has never been doubt in my mind that things would be right. In my darkest times there has always been a light and things have always gotten better. I have wonderful friends and family, even if they bug me sometimes. I have a great community and a great online community of supporters. I have a lot of wonderful things in my life and I am SO grateful for them. I am so happy as I sit here feeling sad that there are people willing to reorganize for me and people willing to hold me tight as I break down. I am very lucky to have a home to cry in. I am grateful each day for what my G-d has given me, for He has done me well.

Hard times or not - I can always see that I still am surrounded by the best in life. Love.

It truly is the thing that cures more than time itself.

 

[bluesub]

Hang in there, enjoy your tea and the time to yourself with your animals. May you find some peace in the next few days.

 

[debilorrah]

Liz giving yourself shiva is the best thing you can do for yourself and to honor the beloved pets that were lost. I have been reading along, and having experienced my own complete massacre three months ago, I know what you are going through. Hang in there. You are very well liked around here.

 

[annaraven]

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I'm a big believer in a bit of booze at the right moment myself. Glad you decided to have a nip with your tea.