I understand fully. This very morning I went to feed my chickens before going to work and found Foghorn, my best friend dead. I am very distraught and was unable to attend to him in shirt and tie as it was muddy inside the coop yard. To think of him lying there on the cold ground until I get home is killing me...he doesn't seem to be a victim of a predator. I'll investigate tonight.
Foghorn was more than my friend...he was the son I never had!