So, so sorry, M2H!
I lost a special girl like that a little more than a year ago, December 13, 2012. Blizzy. She was one of the few sexlinks I've owned not to succumb to internal laying. I don't know what she had, but I spent a week or two trying to nurse her back to health. She ended up wasting away, and after she passed I wrote quite a lengthy post for her. Several months after she died, I found the little baggy of crumbles I had ground up to wet and feed her through a syringe. I ended up writing another long post about her and I bawled my eyes out the entire time. I continue to think of Blizzy, who was so reliably in the way whenever I was working outside and would scold me in her chickeny way if I dared sass her for it. Thinking of how similar to your Jersey she was brings tears to my eyes even today, so many months after I lost her. Blizzy was a bird I felt privileged to know in person.
Anyway, I just wanted to say that you are not alone. Many of us have been there, and I think most of us can empathize. I know I can.