Is There Anybody Else Here With Aspberger's Syndrome?

[justbugged]

Okay here I am at 3:38am, and I am just getting tired enough to go lay down and hopefully not twitch a lot before I pass out. (DH is sleeping and get peeved if I wake him up.)

So I took the tests online and I got a 30 on the shorter test, and 142 on the longer one. This could explain why so most of the people I have known in my life have dislike me so much. I know that I am not stupid, and I thought that I was good at reading peoples faces, but I realized that often get it soon enough to stop me from making myself a fool again. I have always thought I was good at empathy, but I now wonder if that is really true or I just want it to be true. I do know that I am not good at sympathy. I will try to be sympathetic and it quickly disappears, because I tend to problem solve, and get very analytical.

Even my family thinks that I am crazy. They don't say that to my face, but will tell others that I am. I have never been treated for any psychiatric disorder other than depression. Treatment for depression didn't go very well and I have chosen to never try that again.

I some day I will have to post something that I don't heavily edit. It is horrible trying to make my fingers work along with my brain.This took me well over 10 minutes to write.

 

[justbugged]

I really hope that I didn't stop everyone from posting on this thread. I am more that willing to not post again if it upsets everyone. I feel that there was a need for this thread. I hope that it can continue as it was.

 

[booker81]

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I just took the test - 37.

You know how many times I thread kill and feel just like you said??

I've been reading and reading about Aspergers since I took the test....the same one many of my friends (who are mainly online LOL), got a 15 or so on. The more I read, the more lightbulbs come on.

Then I get frustrated trying to talk to real people about it (even online), because I'm excited I finally have something to hold onto, something that gives a cause to the craziness - an actual reason that coherently explains my emotions and inability to handle and perform correct non-verbal communication, and folks either 1) tell me I'm wrong. 2) tell me I'm right and then tell me there is no "cure". Sigh. I know how I feel. I don't WANT a cure. I LIKE me. I don't like the rest of the crap that "normal" folks do - gossip, slyness, saying one thing verbally and meaning another non-verbally, or not speaking straight. I like that I'm "quirky"....I like me.

I like claiming the title of Aspergenrs (and I'll probably go in to my family doc to get a referral to get officially tested), because it opens up doors to me to find like minded folks. It's so very nice to find out I'm not the only one out there that feels like I do, that misreads social cues, that hates social crap, and just is set in what I know, and what I feel. I'm not arrogant, thoughtless, or rude intentionally. I just don't know how to perform the fake socially acceptable motions that portray me the way I really am.

Yeah.

 

[Widget]

I don't think the thread is dead just sleeping.

I know at least one person was having major issues due to the crazy storm in the midwest. And I'm just having a good week. Or almost a good week which for me is a nice thing. Keep in mind as Aspies some of us don't always know what to say or we think we do but aren't sure based on years of experience whether or not we should say it.

 

[booker81]

Wouldn't it be nice if folks could just say what they mean, and mean what they say, and that was that?

Rambling.....

This makes me laugh

http://isnt.autistics.org/

 

[TerriLaChicks]

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Didn't bother me! I am gearing up for the NaNoWritMo November novel writing contest, so will be mostly absent from most forums for the next month - plus have family coming to visit from New York next weekend & Wisconsin the weekend after that -- so there goes my weekend time online, too!

I'll be back!

 

[cmjust0]

A common Aspie trait is to have trouble knowing how to keep a conversation going...I'm frankly shocked that this thread made 10 pages.

 

[annaraven]

I was explaining to someone recently that Aspergers is, today, in a similar place that homosexuality was 50 years ago. Gay people aren't "broken heterosexuals" and Aspies aren't "broken neurotypicals".

We're variations on the 'norm'. Normal variation is A GOOD THING for the gene pool - it provides advantages to the species as a whole because it allows us to deal with different environmental pressures than the norm, improving chances for the species. When you hear about how a species has "evolved to deal with a new environment", what it means is that the weirdos who didn't fit in before suddenly are the ones with the right stuff to deal with the new situation, and are able to keep the species thriving.

Personally, I think that it's the Aspies who are best suited for the online environment! But I may be biased...

 

[cmjust0]

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The online world was pretty much created by Aspies/Auspies/Austists for NTs. The social side of it -- forums, blogs, facebook, etc -- were, I believe, inspired by people with Aspie-esque tendencies.. Face to face sociality is an NT thing, but the possibility of *written, abstracted* sociality appeals very much to the typical Aspie..

Go dig up a youtube video of an interview with Facebook founder Mark Zuckerberg and tell me that guy's not an Aspie.. Tell me someone that awkward and halting and monologuerous (...that should be a word...) didn't have a *need* to create a site like Facebook..

Two quotes from an outstanding ambassador for neurodiversity, Dr. Temple Grandin:

"What would happen if the autism gene was eliminated from the gene pool? You would have a bunch of people standing around in a cave, chatting and socializing and not getting anything done."

"Being truly outstanding in any field may be associated with some type of abnormality. At what point does a brilliant computer programmer or engineer get labeled with Asperger's?"

 

[annaraven]

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I LOVE that quote!