@microchick, I had not read your article before, it's now on my list to recommend to people. Very well done! I felt like I was reading my own story at times, I have also shed many tears. I'm about 2.5 years into dealing with Marek's, had chickens for about 10 years before it got in my flock. None of mine have presented with the leg paralysis and the forward/backward splits. Still looking for a local source for Egyptian Fayoumi's, hopefully eventually I will get the chance to add some to my flock. Right now my EE's seem to be the most resistant birds in my flock, so am mostly breeding them, but the boys do seem to be less resistant.
@Sandy2003 I know how you feel right now also. Try not to panic, it will be OK. It is not hopeless. It just takes some time to learn about it, process it all, and then figure out how you want to move forward.