This sounds like you are describing me!I buy way too many seeds. The term 'bitten off more than you can chew' was meant for me. I have like 13 packs coming already and my list for another catalog was like 30 long
I have an ever growing seed collection.
Secretly....I am a seed hoarder.

I save seed on certain things I love, flowers and veggies. Always scared I won't be able to buy them in the future.
This also saves money on my seed orders.