I'm so sorry for your loss. I couldn't imagine what you and your family are going through, but I hope you'll continue to have good friends and family to carry you through. God bless
Thank you all for the prayers and well wishes. Someone earlier said I seemed to be at peace but honestly that changes hourly. I know I will be fine though. It's my kids I am more worried about. My mom lost her father at age 11 and it was the most traumatic thing in her life. At the time my grandmother was 40 years old, didn't know how to drive a car or pay a bill and had 6 kids to take care of. I have a great job, know how to drive a car and because I paid the bills anyway I know how to handle all that. I figure is she could do it then I can do it now, I am already ahead of the curve.
To the last poster who said she was still waiting to hear the right words (I am sorry for your loss too btw) ...there are none. Silence and a hug are more helpful. (and maybe cleaning my kitchen) -I am ever practical.
I have never been one to ask for help but I haven't had to ask for help, people have stepped up and offered and all I had to do was accept. Which is just a bit easier and even more appreciated.
Please pray my house sells. It's not on the market yet we have lots of work to do yet. I am torn between not wanting to leave my old life and yet ready to start my new one right away. Everything will happen when it happens though.
I have to eventually decide if I am going to drive to OK with my little vintage camper (all the way from Alaska to OK) or sell everything and fly back. So far every day I flip flop back and forth.