I feel like a complete idiot, but figured there is no other group of people who will even come close to understanding. I have lots of chickens, I have lost lots of chickens (my flock free ranges and there will always be predator losses). But...this one, this Ethel. Every night the hens put themselves in the hen house - except Ethel. She waits for me each night to come out of the front door and call to her, and then she comes running to me, turns around and I pick her up and carry her in. Except, that she doesn't anymore, and I am just so absurdly broken up over the loss of this hen. Honestly, I am starting to feel like a crazy lady!