Thank you for sharing your story emvickrey. And thank you everyone for your kind words. I am glad I can finally grieve. Her health had been in decline for a few years, and she kept almost dying and then springing back. It really does seem like they have 9 lives. I am so excited about your emu hatch, Kathy! DH thinks we should have emus after seeing the photos, but I know it would involve a lot more work than we are up for at the moment. I think he has an ulterior motive, as it would give him an excuse to buy a post-hole digger attachement for his tractor.Sorry for your loss. Your kitty was beautiful. I lost my best friend 17 months ago. She had cancer in her intestines. She had artheritis in her hips and we thought it was just getting worse. She was on pain meds for the artheritis. Then she started having issues with not being able to keep food down and I noticed she wasn't going potty and she was in real pain. I rushed her to the vet and he did all kinds of tests and I spent the weekend crying my eyes out because I knew what was going to have to happen but I didn't want to have to do it. Turned out thats exactly what I had to do. I cry just thinking about it. I'm not a cry baby either. Doc said he is 90% sure it's cancer but she wouldn't make it through surgery just to find out for sure and if it was she would have to be put down anyway. So I said no surgery, she's already suffering and I had to end it. She was the best dog. I could feel how much she loved me and she smiled when she greeted somebody she knew. I still miss her badly. I haven't been able to get attached to another dog since. She is also my walpaper on both computers and she's my avatar. I still have her collar hanging on my desk and her pictures are still up and always will be.
I know your heart is breaking and I truely know how you feel. I am so very sorry for your loss.
