My husband is in the same class, and he is about where I am at level wise right now, but feels much more confident we can get everything down by the 9th than I do. It's really, really nice to have a practicing partner, but because we missed so many practices this time around for various reasons, there are some techniques we just haven't been able to even get the gist of as we work through them together. We'll be going in tomorrow early to go through the ones giving us the most trouble with our very helpful instructors, but hm, I'm liking your idea of asking to test next time honestly. That's the problem though, I have serious anxiety issues for any small change (Even completely positive change!), so I can't tell if I'm just wasting everyone's time by trying this time, or if I am balking as usual. I think I'd best be talking to the main instructor, he's an understanding guy and is the one who decides when we test (we don't get charged for testing at this studio, just the belt and certificate if you advance). Main problem to me is they tell us "the most important thing is to do
something, to react", but I am totally a deer in headlights on a good day.
Their pushing to react is helping me though, outside of class and just in everyday life, to not be so painfully hung up on every little thing mentally. That's one of the great things about martial arts I think, the philosophy and how much that can help just in the day to day.
Thanks so much for the response! It helps so much just addressing it, honestly.