Lady... are you working with natural therapies for you depression? Color, aroma, exercise, SUN, light therapy, (have a sun lamp also) vit d, a hobby (like chickens aren't enough) Avoiding prepackaged foods(thinking hamburger helper types), MSGs, fake and/or modified sweeteners?
I am Bi-polar my self. I do not take meds either. I was prescibed depacote once upon a time. It brought me so low all the time. I felt like a zombie. I flushed them. In hinde sight, probably should have returned them to the pharmacy for proper disposal. I am very in touch with my moods. I can tell when I am about to shift up or down. I can tell a day or so before it happens that I am about to have a bad day. (I dream in color and I rage in my sleep) I am very careful to read label. Now I am even doing my best to avoid food that have GMO, which can be hard if you haven't grown everything yourself, so, read the labels, numbers on the produce and even have a phone ap that tells me if the producer of foods is a user of gmos. Really shortens the list of food in our stores. BUT brings you back to real homemade meals also.
I feed my chickens GMO free feeds also. We are what we eat, and I eat my chickens eggs...And occassionaly a chicken.
I avoid crowds, hot stores (wal-mart is the most unpleasant place for me to shop, no air in there) live just on the outskirt of town. Don't listen to the tv high... to much noise and I am instantly pithed off. Having two boys can be a challenge when they are both screaming, running and sword fighting... (!@#$ star wars) But I have picked up my paint brushes again, writing when I can. Snapping photos. Cleaning the garage coop... always fun to scrape down the cement floor. It's solitary, and peaceful. Go figure. Raking up the out door coops, scraping down... solitary and peaceful... Audio books are also an outlet. I don't think much when I listen to an audio book. Still function on auto pilot, but peaceful. Sometime suspenseful. I even use my audible on my phone at work in the AM and it's nothing to hear my coworkers radio that the crazy lady is laughing to herself again. ( I just finished Takedown 20 ) I have few personal friends. The friends I have don't get mad at me when I don't call them for a week or two. They know. And a true friend will not hold it against me. They know me. They also know that I will drop everything, no matter what mood I am in, and go and help them.
I do not apologize for who I am. I do not expect my family to always be happy with me. BUT if they were to treat me badly... Well you can't pick your blood relatives, but you can pick your family. And the people who love and accept you the way you are, related or not, those are the people to surround your self with. The rest can just be bystanders that you can ignore for the most part.