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Bunni, wonderful picture and wonderful memorial that you wrote for Billie. The medication may be "flattening out" your normal ability to cry and to feel grief, but my goodness you have made all of us feel how really special Billie was with your picture and your words. I feel like I really knew your little dog and miss his absence from this world even though I never met him. You can absolutely tell from that beautiful photo that Billie was having a really good day. I'm sure you and your DH gave him so, so many of those. And he gave love and joy right back, the way all the lucky and good dogs do. But you really made him stand out as a unique and irreplaceable friend.
I can relate to your experience with your DH's grief. When we lost the first dog my DH and I adopted together, he woke up sobbing numerous times. A few months ago, he was crying over a dog who died a couple years ago. And yet, if he cried when his mom and then his dad passed, I am not aware of it. I was recently reading an article that said women want dogs but men need them--that if they can't fully be sweet and tender with anything else, a dog lets them experience that.
to you both.
Thanks to ALL of you who have responded with such kindness and kind words.
My "DH" never married and never had any children. He was 51 when we met. He's had dogs all his life, they were his family. He adopted one once and only had it a few days, took it in to get him neutered and found out he had severe heart worms and the vet suggested he be put down before he experienced suffering. Jerry bawled his eyes out. He's always been that way. Very sensitive about dogs in particular, but animals in general. He CANNOT watch many Animal Planet programs because of the abuse he sees. He has to get up and leave the room, mostly for tissues. Same thing with those Sarah McLaughlin commercials for ASPCA.
Im not saying it doesn't effect me, just that it does really really effect him. It embarrasses him that he is so weepy as he calls it. But I wound't want to be with someone who has no feelings for animals. We have a friend who really doesn't like them and won't let his wife get a small lap dog. That's just sad.
I've cried over every dog I ever had, and lost. I just can't feel anything anymore. I don't like it, it's just the way it is. Numbness. But it (paxil) keeps me from living with panic attacks, which are debilitating in themselves.
Ya know, theres one thing I forgot to put on Billie's memorial: We credit him with saving the lives of 5 of our big, outdoor dogs. I have to go put that story on his page........blessings to you all.