mummy to be

[qwackers]

*doh for, I meant for not fir!

 

[qwackers]

ok so that was it before, alot of slabs , concrete and gravel and a 3 foot drop onto the grass and then I made a hole for the ducks....

and it got bigger

and bigger

and bigger!

that's duck dedication! But we were left with about 4 tonnes of rubble that came out if it, so we had to hire a skip. I wanted to grass the rest of the area now we'd got rid of the gravel! Will have to take a pic in the morning to show you how it looks now, prepare yourself! Anywho I'd best go to bed as its 5 to one in the morning here! Stupid hi tech phones don't come with instructions! Night night and keep your chin up x x x

 

[Megan Amber]

That is duck dedication! Wow you guy are doing a great job and I am sure they will love it!

 

[qwackers]

[/IMG]. I took these today for you so you can see it's getting there slowly. I started painting the fence today but typically ran out of paint when I was on the home straight! Had it all over my face, hands, arms and even my hair! Had a nice bath though and now ready for bed!
Am thinking of you as I know it's only an hour or so until the service. Hope you are holding on in there. X x x x

 

[Megan Amber]

Thank You, I am trying. So many people here, some I like more than others but not snapping or anything so .....

Really looks like things are coming along! Should be perfect by the time your little guys are ready to move out!!

 

[qwackers]

Just remember to breathe, and if it gets to much just go outside for some air, everyone understands. People can be hard to tolerate when you are feeling rubbish but they'll be gone soon, just ignore them if they say anything stupid! I'm hoping no one will though. I agree with Karen about the seeing out of the corner of you eye thing. I get it quite a lot. I just try and say to myself oh that's really lovely if it was them, just stopping in to make sure we're ok. Im sure he's probably with you already wondering what all this is about! Just remembered you saying about your phone ringing the other night. Anyway rambling again.
Yeh it's guna be great when we get some soil down and sow some grass! Tomorrow when I get back from work I'm going to attempt to make my own broader! Watch this space!
Sending you caring thoughts and strength to get through this time x x x

 

[Megan Amber]

Yeah I wonder if I had answered it if any of this would have happened.

 

[qwackers]

I'm sorry I shouldn't have brought that up but i wondered if it had crossed your mind. But in reality the chances of it making any difference are slim. It was probably just a coincidence. An example of the what if's that go round our heads.
I hope today is a little less intense for you all x x x

 

[qwackers]

Hope todays been ok. All 5 duckies have internally pipped I think, I can see shadows in the air sac! Think I went into lock down too soon though as some people have said they don't go into lock down until they've internally pipped. Oh well we are there and a nice big air sacs!

 

[Megan Amber]

I do at the same time you did it-Day 25. That is cool that they have internally pipped! They will be out in a manner of minutes to days now! Here is the real patience challenge. And what a relief about the air sac size.

Today is the crappiest day so far!!!!!!! I think my sadness will register as anger until I am being left alone by the "helpful" relatives! My dad's mother went back home today and I really love her and miss her so that makes things harder but she had things to do and I understand. My mom's dad I can not stand and I am getting sick and tired of him looking at me like I am having coping issues when I have been the strongest one here! He is not as much of a help as he thinks he is. But I know he is only trying. Any way the memorial was nice and it meant a lot to my mother so that is good. Sorry for ranting-couldn't help it!