mummy to be

[Megan Amber]

Thanks I really do appreciate that. I just wonder if it is normal for me to be forgetting things that I know. Just now I couldn't even remember how to turn on the stupid vaccum cleaner. I think I learned how much I took life for granted. I wasn't even there when it happened.

 

[qwackers]

It's totally normal don't worry, your brain is preoccupied with other more important things. It's going to take a while for things to feel anything near normal again and doing even little things like vaccuming is going to be weird. I don't think there is a right or wrong way to be acting through things like this. Just take every minute as it comes with one step at a time. Don't beat yourself up about not being there. We are always very good at torturing ourselves with what if's and should of's, when really it probably wouldn't have changed a thing. (i should listen to my own advice!) Do you mind me asking what happened?

 

[Megan Amber]

Thank You-my dad keeps telling me that blame is an endless road. I am trying so hard to be there for my mom and little brother and sister.

Long story short it was a terrible gun accident. We are having the memorial sometime tomorrow.

 

[qwackers]

I'm so sorry that's awful. Your dad is right, honestly especially when guns are involved. How old is your other brother and sister? Try and keep busy, distractions are good but it's ok to be sad too..sorry I'm rambling! *hugs*

 

[Megan Amber]

Jami is nine and Samantha is eleven. I am keeping myself busy as much as possible. And I don't mind your rambling. Makes me smile.

 

[qwackers]

Aw I'm glad I can make you smile with my ramblings! I'm not surprised your keeping busy really with your whole zoo to look after! How are jami and Samantha coping? When did this all happen - Saturday? Was anyone else hurt? Yeh remember all the happy times with a smile and that you shared them . He'll always be with you. It's totally different but I had a twin called Andrew that didn't make it as my mum miscarried him but somehow I stayed. Always thought he gave me his life in a weird way and I swear I feel him around looking out for me. But I didn't even know him so it's not the same at all. Annnyyway. Ozzy redecorated the front room again today! Stupid cat! And thennn he went and chased the ducks! Hope my lil fuzzy butts will be safe enough until they get big! Did you have a nice day with the goats or didn't that happen?

 

[Megan Amber]

I was over with the goats when Maurice (my friend) got the call from my mom about what happened. It was around eleven Saturday morning. Sam and Jami are doing the best they can really. Jami is going back and forth between over excitment from all the people here and just completely crashing into saddness. Sam is trying very hard to be a help and I am very proud of her. My brothers name was Andrew to, that's a little odd.

Anyway I hope your ducks will be well and good. Tomorrow is lock down day for you and then.....babies!!!

 

[qwackers]

Yeah it's going to be strange for them for a while, well all of you obviously but must be confusing for the little one. Yeh it is odd isn't it about the name thing. I'm glad you weren't on your own when you found out. I hope tomorrow goes as well as it can in the circumstances. I'll see if I can dig out pics of my garden so you can see what a mess we've made of it! I forgot I said I'd do that! It will look teenie in comparison with your place.

 

[Megan Amber]

I look forward to seeing the pictures. Thank you for being there for me even though you don't really know me.I like having some one that I can talk to and not worry about being strong for them.

 

[qwackers]

Ok it's not letting me do it. I'm guna have to figure this out! Don't thank me, that's what friends are for even if I am the other side of a huuggeeee ocean and we've never met! I know how you feel, in a different circumstance but being the glue fir your family is hard work and exhausting. Make sure you take some time and care for yourself.