I don’t know what an LDG even is. All I know is that every time I look at them, hear them, feed them, take them out… what have you, I’m haunted by what’s happened. Those gruesome images play in my head like videos on repeat and it seems as if there’s no end. I’m at the point where I won’t even eat store bought chicken cause it’s all I freaking see and I’m constantly reminded.
It sucks.
Not a pet so obviously different, but it broke my heart when my malamute caught a pigeon. I couldn't get the bird off her and it was gruesome. Got it from her long after it was dead.
It was slightly traumatic I guess, I was pretty cross with her.
And then I realised how I felt was unreasonable, she wasn't a monster, she was just doing what her instincts told her. She couldn't understand.
It was the last animal she's caught, thank god. She doesn't go after the pigeons anymore.
But it's still in my head sometimes.
Your dogs aren't monsters, they're not evil. They unintentionally caused you pain, that doesn't make them evil. You've learned the hard way that dogs and poultry don't mix, and it can be difficult to keep them separate without a good and secure set up. It is never the dogs fault in this situation. We take and breed and buy these predators as pets, it's our responsibility to train them, and even then, there's always some risk they'll do what is in their nature. We don't have the right to be angry with them if that happens.
I'm sorry for your losses, but you have to face this. The dogs did what almost any dog would. I hope you forgive them for the hurt you feel.
I'd encourage two things.
Firstly, impulse control. Train the dogs to leave temptations and obey a "leave it" command. I recommend lots of positive reinforcement, helps the training to stick.
Secondly, a better set up for future birds. Keep them completely separate. For my malamute I have two barriers, a fence separating half the garden and then a pen within that half containing my birds.
Both of your dogs have killed now, don't give second chances. Keep them separate and incase the worst happens, work on their impulse control.