My leukemia's back.

[LittleLakePhil]

Really? You?


Me... sad last 2 days.... thinking about my dad.

Sorry brother.... my dad was a bad man.
But to this day I still wish I'd said good bye.
My mom hated him and we weren't allowed to feel sorry for him. She basically let him die alone. She had every right to hate him..... .....but death is so permanent that 35 years later it bothers me he spent the last months dying by himself. Last time I saw him I said see ya..... not good bye..... no I love yous .....

 

[LittleLakePhil]

Cynthia, I don't know if this would help or hurt, but Dh watches several wood working shows on tv. One of the things they have in common, is when they use a table saw they usually have a "pusher". On one of the shows, they made their own "pushers", while on the others they use bought ones. Get a few scraps of wood decent sized wood, paint them red, bright blue, whatever, and keep them right there handy for him to use to "push" the wood through the saw, without getting his fingers anywhere near the blade. Encourage him to use the pushers when he's getting to the end of the piece he's cutting. That way, if he cuts into the pusher, he's unharmed.

Well don't let him near my table saw....I took all the safety guards off of mine.

 

[getaclue]

Good morning Team Rachel. I hope everyone has a good day today.

 

[N F C]

Phil

I think there are always regrets when we lose someone, no matter the circumstances. My dad knew he was going to die and when he told me, I didn't know what to say, I was at a loss for words. Since then, I've thought of a lot of things I wish I would have said. It's just never easy.

 

[LittleLakePhil]

That..is..a good idea! He told that this was small board, and it lifted at the end. He reached over and pushed the board down, got too close. This tells me, bad judgment. The dr. talked with him about never ever wearing gloves while working with a saw ethier..he doesnt..but good to know. Catches the glove and up goes the whole hand. I think I'll ask a son if he can make him one of those pushers! Thank you. And now that you brought that up, something he can use to hold a board down, from a distance. Dimentia folks tend to have a problem with judging distance. I'm doing most of the driving now. He drives to church, just a few blocks away in his truck. This driving thing is going tough when he's told no more.

I'm sorry you have to go through this.
At least you have friends here to help with moral support. .... being a caregiver is tough.
My wife wasn't real good at it when I was sick.
But I wouldn't let her do much either.
When I first got out of the hospital I couldn't walk well..... .....but I was out working on her jeep on the second day out.... when I was sick she was in her 20's or daughter was 2. It was a lot for a young woman with a 9th grade education and 2 boys in high school 600 miles away to deal with.
I'm glad your husband has you..... and this is happening later in life.
Love you friend..... phil

 

[LittleLakePhil]

Even my father had a pusher he made. No bright color but, at least he used it. My father was a person that tried often to kill himself or us, during daily chores. He found a can full of rusty pennies in the woods while stalking empty and not so empty(like full of ants) discarded beer cans.

He put them in the laundry tub with straight bleach. When he came back to check the pennies he wasn't happy, SO he poured in a jug of his favorite, etching product. Next think I hear him coughing his lungs out and a vile cloud around him. I told him to get out of the house NOW. He didn't/wouldn't so I got my son out, opened all the windows in the house , then stood on the driveway with him till it seemed safe. Name just came to me
Muriatic Acid.

Later I told him to go to the ER to see how much damage he caused to his lungs. Wouldn't go.

Went to google to find out what bleach + muriatic acid create. Surprised he lived after that.

I'll check it out....I use muriatic acid all the time....

 

[LittleLakePhil]

PS It turned the combination completely wiped out all printing on the pennies, they were just bare, naked round things.

Kinda like me before I went on a diet

 

[LittleLakePhil]

Phil

I think there are always regrets when we lose someone, no matter the circumstances. My dad knew he was going to die and when he told me, I didn't know what to say, I was at a loss for words. Since then, I've thought of a lot of things I wish I would have said. It's just never easy.

Never easy..... most of the important things aren't

 

[LittleLakePhil]

Well by the end of today this sucker will be out and on the ground.
Then the real work begins....I have to pull the motor out of the other truck to put this one in.

it's been a slow process as I don't move like I used too.

 

[drumstick diva]

Phil , none of us move like we used too.