My leukemia's back.

Phill don't be silly, sometimes we have to get the petty out in order to get better. I needed to vent, and the rest of the folks here understood the whys and I understand you needing an escape valve, fortunately we know each other but yet there is a little bit of an anonymous type setting here so we can be more open and honest about stuff. Heaven forbid we get our underthings in a bunch with someone here we can leave before exploding and ignore BYC a few days and not suffer the problems with a face to face relationship and ignoring someone a few days esp. if it's a neighbor or coworker we have to see regularly. We all know we are not perfect. nut sometimes it's easier here because most of us won't shove each others noses in it, in part because most of these are CHOSEN relationships, not forced.
I understand...I rant to much on the subject of my son.
He's a great kid.... Great father etc.
He does things I don't like so much.
I had a more down to earth approach at raising children....I wasn't going to do to my kids what happened to me.
Or my wife.
My son lives in a whole different world.
I never made much money..... So it's a serious shock when I go visit..... My son alone makes about 10x what I ever made and his wife does pretty good herself working for the Social.Sec. office.
So it's kinda difficult for a guy to walk into that and not feel his own short comings.
But I've come to grips with it mostly..... As a dad in should be real proud and I am.... Two highschool kids (my wife was 15) did good.... But I still feel some pain. Knowing if I had been given the tools.... Coupled with my intelligence (I'm no intellectual weakling) I could have achieved way more in life.
But yes I realize I did the best I could with the lack of parenting skills I had.
My wife and I had to grow up together.... And some how.... Because I wouldn't accept failure.... We survived a terminal illness and some serious alcoholic years on my wife's part.
So..... Thanks ......everyone who I've known here now for several years.
 
Had an interesting conversation to say the least, cousin who is doing the funeral, (he's a minister) asked me some questions, I told him my answers and went on a rant, told him I didn't care if I saw any of the family again, and told him why, he didn't know what to say, I told him I didn't need or expect a response I didn't care any more. told him since my brothers over ruled my thoughts on dad's funeral and the uncles came in and sabotaged the others and aunts stabbed me in the back afterwards. I knew what to expect and I didn't care any more. I didn't tell him what I really felt, which is I want to go to their funerals to make sure they are dead. and also If I go to my mom's funeral just ask them why they waited until she was dead to see mom, and never came around for decades to see her when she was alive.
Family issues suck..... Don't they.
Seems like every family has something going on..... Wayward drama for sure.
My wife didn't speak to her mother for the last 10 years of her life.
My brother doesn't talk to my mother either.....
So I basically take care of her best I can.
When my wife's mother died..... Her aunt called. My wife said thanks for letting me know.... That was it.
No funeral.... No service... No nothing.
And just like my dad no one knows where she's buried.
There was so much bad drama....i got into the middle of my Grandma and my mother.... My mom wanted dad's ashes thrown in a dumpster..... My Grandma stole his ashes and had him buried somewhere.
..... Things were good here..... Till my family followed me to the U.P.
 
another problem is the other Dr. might not have believed that H. pylori causes ulcers. It has not been long since it was announced as the standard and many Dr.s are resistant to new methods that proved they were completely wrong about a condition.

Alzheimer dementia may wind up being the same thing. There is some research that suggests that amaloid plaque is not a cause but a result of a viral infection in the brain. I can't wait to see how this all plays out
I think that they are really close to some breaks in treating the dementia type afflictions ..... Unfortunately that can't come fast enough.
:hugs
 
funny last night my cousin called he's doing the service and he's now pissed at me because I was honest with him. I am tired. if he wants sunshine up somewhere he can look for it elsewhere. I am finally standing up for myself, I think mom would be embarrassed, but she would be alright with it because she never had the courage to speak up and speak out.
 

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