My mom is dying *She's gone now **update*

[tonini3059]

It was hard very very hard, and I know of a few people who have pmed me who say they are going through something similiar and I hope that somehow I can help them out, sharing the ups and downs well mostly downs there were no ups. It was very traumatic, the staring the sounds the glazed looks. Especially at the end her end face was not pleasant and since we are not having a viewing that is the last time I saw her and it will haunt me. I am glad that I have a supportive family (husband brothers and may dad's side) We all went out to eat tonight at eat n park, which was like a deja vu because they last time we ate their was right after we found out that a good friend of my family who was my fourth brother was killed in a auto accident. Everything is still so serene and I do not want the hurt to come in. I was surprised I did not burst into tears when I came home...I kept dreading it, but it was 10:30 and I cannot stay at my brother's house forever. It was especially hard because they did not tell the kids about grandma passing yet they want to wait until tomorrow after my niece's school to tell her (She will be 5 next month, Nate is 3, and Lyla 6 mo) So when I am leaving Ava runs and hands me some pictures she colored to give to Grandma and to give grandma a kiss for her. I just wanted to break down and cry......

 

[easttxchick]

Crying is therapeutic...let yourself grieve-you are entitled to it.

 

[chickenlittle32]

It's a hard thing for me to break down and cry when I think of my mom. I try to be strong for my boys, and family. But, when I do hold it in, I start getting angry and start fussing at everyone and everything. It's a hard thing to do, but try not to hold it in..

Sorry this had to happen at such a young age..prayers go out to you and your family.

 

[coloradochick]

So sorry this day has come for you, my heart goes out to you and your family.

 

[Robin'sBrood]

I'm so very sorry for the loss of your mother. As others have said, she was awfully fortunate to have you as a daughter.

 

[ozark hen]

My dh and I have five daughters...I pray they will be half as good to us when it comes our time to pass on as you have been to your mother. I am very proud of youl

Honor her memory and celebrate her life. She will always be in your heart. Know you have many friends here on BYC to come to for comfort.

 

[sbarab]

So sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you and your family.

 

[19hhbelgian]

The closest I can get to relating to your situation is with my animals... They are my kids, and it was so hard to say goodbye to my old draft horse last winter... I still get upset over it (like right now)... Time will help, let yourself grieve - don't try to hold too much in. My Mom lost her Dad when she was only about 16. It took her years to "fully" recover. She doesn't talk about him much, but when she does I can tell it's still difficult... I'm so sorry for your loss... Remember the good times

 

[Eggs4Sale]

Quote:
So well said, and so true.

 

[Hoosiermomma]

I'm so sorry! I'm sending lots of prayers for peace and strength to get through the days and months ahead.