Shaneen I am so sorry this happened to you. I've had a lot of loss in my life (dogs, cats, husband, income, home, etc) so I truly mean it when I tell you I know how it feels to have all that work and all those precious babies go down for seemingly nothing. It's horrible and there are times when I'd get so depressed and question my own existence. But I can tell you this with 100% certainty: God always turns it around for good. Every single time there's a devastating loss and I'll never be ok, He turns it around. And I'm a better human being for my many losses and mistakes and failures.
Hang in there girl, and don't forget to breathe. I'll be following your progress as you work through this terrible event.
Hang in there girl, and don't forget to breathe. I'll be following your progress as you work through this terrible event.