Mysteriously Disappearing Eggs + No Hatches

[luvmypets]

   Sometimes I pretend she is here. I pretend she is spiritually under my neck again. All 12 of her siblings are here, too. In fact every animal exists here with me in a way, but they are not actually here. I'll see if I can rescue chicks in the morning. I feel like I should still be at her grave, though. I feel like I should still be there to protect her. I feel like she is crying for me out there, she is chirping so loud that I can hear it in my mind. I do hear phantom peeps but I guessing that is part of the denial stage. I just don't want to give those ducklings poor energy from my poor behavior. Luckily all my dogs flock me and try to comfort me when they sense something is up. But if ducklings can sense energy too then I don't want them to be depressed with me. I was mildly depressed before this happened but it might have progressed to severe since I have all of the grieving and severe depression signs. For example I don't feel hungry anymore and I only ate two small things today, but only because I knew I had to eat.

I have only ever incubator hatched one chick. At two weeks we gave him to a friend. I didnt see him for three months and when i finally spoke to them i found out he was dead i didnt allow myself to cry for some reason. Instead while i cleaned stalls i heard peeping all around me. You have a very strong bond to your animals. A year ago my dog got put down the day after my birthday, she was only five and to this day i still feel her presence.

As for eating make sure not to starve yourself. But i understand the no appetite thing. You just need time to adjust

 

[biddyboo8]

And people say I'm just sensitive to death. Well now I'll tell them I have a stronger bond to my animals then they'll ever understand. I got my bunny just hours ago and if I saw her die or get taken away I'd probably never be able to get out of bed. You've helped me a lot, luvmypets. Thank you for that. When I did keep her under my neck if I adjusted I would hear her peep. Now if I move a little bit I can still hear her protest cries. Before I couldn't sleep from excitement of a baby duck, and now it's grieving of a baby duck. The moment our eyes latched I could tell she was a part of me. And this isn't some cheesy sob story that most people tell. It felt as if she was here forever, but still brand new. Now it feels like we never had her but have had her forever. Luckily I am yet to experience a human death, but I can easily imagine what it feels like. I am just gonna bleed out my emotions to me friends and family in the morning. After saving Feta Cracker's life and then having her die just HOURS later...I fell apart. During typing this I heard Feta Crackers chirp, peep, and click her approval.

Edit: Yeah I know I have to at least eat one thing a day in order for me to stay safe. Besides if I did hurt myself I'd never be able to forgive myself for not saving all the animals on craigslist.

 

[luvmypets]

It like you have a spiritual connection to her. Dont worry i really think you should go on craigslist and get some babies. Not to mention the lil bunny helps.

 

[biddyboo8]

I'd be so happy if I could feel a fuzzy duckling under my neck again. I just checked craigslist and most ducklings are much older than my day old baby. I'm fine with that as long I am rescuing babies but I am afraid they might be too bid for my chin! lol Haha I'm joking. I will thoroughly look through craigslist for fuzzy ducklings, any age! I might not be able to get them though, and I wouldn't be able to handle another death currently.

 

[cluckcluckluke]

So sorry for your loss

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[luvmypets]

I'd be so happy if I could feel a fuzzy duckling under my neck again. I just checked craigslist and most ducklings are much older than my day old baby. I'm fine with that as long I am rescuing babies but I am afraid they might be too bid for my chin! lol Haha I'm joking. I will thoroughly look through craigslist for fuzzy ducklings, any age! I might not be able to get them though, and I wouldn't be able to handle another death currently.

yea....maybe you should give it some time. I feel like if you rescued alot of babies.. one is bound to die and idt you can take tht at the moment. but its your choice. Also your bound to find some craiglist ads for younger babies.

 

[biddyboo8]

Nope, we can't get more babies. That's fine, I just wish we could though. And yes, one would be bound to die and I'd never be able to forgive myself.

 

[darrn]

I'm so sorry for your loss. 5 years ago I had to put down my dog at the age of 5. For awhile I could see her waiting for me at the top of the stairs. I know she's with me in spirit. Death is something I don't fear.. my faith in Christ comforts me daily. I believe with all my heart my loved ones, family, friends and pets are all waiting for me to join them when my times comes. Keeping you in prayer.

 

[luvmypets]

I'm so sorry for your loss. 5 years ago I had to put down my dog at the age of 5. For awhile I could see her waiting for me at the top of the stairs. I know she's with me in spirit. Death is something I don't fear.. my faith in Christ comforts me daily. I believe with all my heart my loved ones, family, friends and pets are all waiting for me to join them when my times comes. Keeping you in prayer.

 

[darrn]

I have a lazy female duck. She's laying her eggs where a silkie is brooding. She has 3 of her eggs there right now. My question is will the silkie be ok with these, or should I move them to the incubator? Silkie has 4 of her eggs or her sister's under her with the duck eggs.