Harmonylight
Songster
- Jun 24, 2021
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Hey y’all. So I’m gonna be honest for a sec. There’s been some stuff happening these last couple of months, involving myself and a friend who has been kinda manipulative and hurtful. Just been taking a lot of space up in my brain, and I didn’t even realize how bad it was til it started getting worse lately. I finally talked to my parents recently, and they helped me realize that my fear of this friend and the way I felt abt him was because of how he has treated me. That’s been a whole lot more crazy than I expected or thought it would be. I’ve known him since I was literally a year old, and he’s been one of my longest friends. But now, he’s changed into someone I never knew. Eliza and Josh know abt this, and have been really insane in helping me thru it. If you need any proof, they could probably back me up on it bc I’ve been leaning on them the last little bit, when I realized how bad it really was. They’ve both been a miracle. (@Yukiko & @Crestcrazy2 y’all are amazing, I couldn’t be more grateful. God looked at me and said “she needs them” and he couldn’t have been more right.)
Next, I’ve been lacking motivation. I get home from work, and I just wanna sit on the couch and do literally nothing. (Even tho I always end up doing stuff lol )
And also, my laptops charger is broken. I keep using it as an excuse. I’m sure I could use the laptop til it dies for now, but the issue is my phone sometimes glitches with byc; but I can use my phone so now I’m going to have to use my phone on here instead of the laptop…. Oh joy.
And finally, I keep lying to myself. I keep saying, “I’m gonna do the rp. I’m gonna do it. I’m gonna get caught up.” Then, the TINIEST thing happens, and I totally just say “Oh nvm I’m busy.” Even if I know I could go do it. Idek why.
I’m really sorry I haven’t been on, and for now behind I’ve gotten.
I love y’all’s patience and it really does mean a lot that people I’ve never had the honor to meet want to give me these chances.
So thank you guys all so freaking much, I very much am grateful, and hope to do my part extremely soon. Hopefully tonight, I just have to keep myself motivated after I get home tonight (easier said than done haha!)
Next, I’ve been lacking motivation. I get home from work, and I just wanna sit on the couch and do literally nothing. (Even tho I always end up doing stuff lol )
And also, my laptops charger is broken. I keep using it as an excuse. I’m sure I could use the laptop til it dies for now, but the issue is my phone sometimes glitches with byc; but I can use my phone so now I’m going to have to use my phone on here instead of the laptop…. Oh joy.
And finally, I keep lying to myself. I keep saying, “I’m gonna do the rp. I’m gonna do it. I’m gonna get caught up.” Then, the TINIEST thing happens, and I totally just say “Oh nvm I’m busy.” Even if I know I could go do it. Idek why.
I’m really sorry I haven’t been on, and for now behind I’ve gotten.
I love y’all’s patience and it really does mean a lot that people I’ve never had the honor to meet want to give me these chances.
So thank you guys all so freaking much, I very much am grateful, and hope to do my part extremely soon. Hopefully tonight, I just have to keep myself motivated after I get home tonight (easier said than done haha!)