Prayer for a Member - Lost her daughter Update Pg 16

You are on my mind every day Lori.
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I was surprised to find this thread was still here. Rereading it was hard and helpful at the same time. Sunday will make it 5 months. Still having regular meltdowns. Guess that's normal. Haven't been to a meeting since early December, will go to one next Monday though.

The holidays were hard. Post-holiday has been harder, though. Kerry loved snow days and we've had sooo many of them. And it breaks my heart that Cassie is home alone. She admitted it's been hard for her, too. I do like my job, but it's got some stressors that I'm not dealing with well. And I'm thinking maybe I should be home for the summer so that Cassie isn't alone. Maybe I'll go back to school and finish getting my teaching certification in the fall.

Cassie is doing okay, mostly. Her grades are better, and she ended up making an A on her science project (based on breeding my lavender d'Uccles). She has her guinea pig, a cute long-hair names Cinderella that we rescued from an animal shelter. They have a lot more personality than our hamsters ever did. And Cassie has decided she doesn't want chickens any more
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AFTER I've gotten attached to her Silkies, of course. I'll hold onto them until the next show, though. Maybe that will make her interested again. If not, I'll sell most of them.

Thanks for all your kind words and support. It helped then and it helped again today. If it's still here, I know I will read it again in February. I dread March 4th. My Kerry-girl would've been 17
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Lori I know there aren't any words that will give you the comfort you need. If there were I would repeat them to you over and over until the hurt stopped. I am glad to hear that Cassies grades are improving, that is a great sign. I hope she decides to keep the chickens, they are good for the soul
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It is good to hear from you
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Take care.
 
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and Prayers

This is not an easy time for me either.
I lost my 2 month old grandson in March 2006, My home to a fire June 2006 and my mother July 2006.

I found my father in 2004, was going to spend my first christmas with him in 2008, he died from Cancer Dec 22, 2008 while I was on the plane.

The holidays are not the same with members of the family missing. I spend alot of time alone, as my DH works out of town. I have a few people in my life that just don't get it, it is not something we choose, it just happens, the feelings come in waves, and you can only hang on and know that it will eventually pass.

thank you all for being there in times like these; for comfort, friendship, and prayers.

I wish you all peace, comfort and love.

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& Prayers
 
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I think of you and your entire family frequently.

I think I remember Cassie has a birthday this month, right? Her 10th? A decade is an accomplishment! I hope she has (had) a wonderful day celebrating as best she (and all of you) can.

Life certainly is not always fair - and it often breaks your heart - but it's always worth it.

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This is my message - I've been to the edge.


Big hug - for you and your entire family. It's good to hear from you.
 
I wasn't a member here when this happened but I just have to post to tell you my heart goes out to you. I have a daughter who will be 16 next month and I cannot begin to imagine what you're going through. Please know that you and Kerry are in my prayers.
 
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Thanks, Kelly. Actually, Cassie turned 14 on the 4th. So you were close! And we did have a nice day. She had school, but it opened 2 hours late. We went out to eat at her favorite restaurant and had her favorite adult friend of the family join us there. And she got some gifts that made her squeal out loud with glee.

No, life isn't fair. I knew/know that. But what head knows and my heart feels are two totally different things, and they are at war a lot lately. I feel like I walk on the edge all the time.

Weird thing: I was driving to get Cassie from an after school event a week ago and realized I was going to fast and driving too carelessly. And that it wasn't scaring me at all, that death wasn't so scary. Then the song "Dead Man's Party" came on the radio. And THAT jolted me. Cassie needs me to be careful. Kerry knew that song, knew it was one of my favorite songs. And it gave me cold chills when it first came on. But I'm being much more careful now!



Thanks for the prayers BedHead. They are appreciated very much.
 

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