Why Hello friends,
I think about each of you every day too. It would be easier if I had computer connection at home but I don't. I suppose that's God's way curbing my usage.
My blood pressure is low again and my meds do funny things to me, so I've just been hanging out at home mostly. I'm tired and nap most days and haven't gotten a lick done. Then there's a med that makes me burn up, turns my skin red like a sunburn, and gives me that anxiety kind of feeling. They said if I take an aspirin half an hour before taking it, I should be ok....um, nope. It worked for a day or two and then not anymore.
So yesterday we realize that Zoe's (8yrs.) cat is no where to be found. Now he's a total social cat and I see him all through out the day--laying about, eating, wandering around...but not yesterday. I realize the night before he must have gotten out..no biggie...he usually runs right back to the back door after 5-15 min. of eating grass, playing in wild catnip, rolling on the gravel drive, and stalking birds... So I thought, well, he's probably hiding in the garage? no. On the front porch where there's a kitty door? no. bushes? no under neighbor's deck? no. other neighbor's deck or bushes? no.
We walked up and down the road. Looked in every culvert, bush, ditch...empty buildings...nothing. Zoe was sobbing...she cried herself to sleep last night.
Then Molly, our new pup, who fell asleep on the pull out couch with us...woke me up at 4 am. by going over to the window I left open so I could hear Zoe's cat, Trooper, meow if he came home. And I jump up because I think Molly is going to pee on the floor.
I take her to the door and there stands the black cat, Trooper, lookin up at me and meowing. dork. He runs past the dogs and goes right for his food dish. I let the dogs out and then pick Trooper up and plop his 15 lbs. of love right on his girl and she wakes up, holds and hugs him and scolds him and says, "WHERE have YOU been? Why would you do that to me?" and proceeds to kiss and hug him and then falls asleep with him in her arms. He was VERY tired today.
As me and my mom and friend were talking we figured maybe he wandered off and got turned around and had a hard time finging his way home and plus there's all these young people and families shooting fireworks these last few days with the holiday approaching...he probably was scared half to death hiding somewhere.
There was one time my mom's cat dissappeared for a month and then he came home but he was well taken care of where ever he landed. He was long haired and his coat was not matted but still sleek and he wasn't malnourished or anything. He kept dissappearing from time to time and we felt he probably was spending time at another home. trader.
Zoe's cat has the microchip so I figured if he did get picked up I hoped they'd contact a vet or animal control first to see if he belonged to anyone. I was really hoping and praying for a good outcome. That boy had us scared. Little turd.
Let's see....boo...that sounds so completely funny...with the tails. I would have tried to rescue the whole lot.
I'm such a cat push over. I wonder where that mama took em. I guess it will remain a mystery. I still wonder where my sisters cat ran off to. She was dumped there and no near by houses or anything and then she went into heat once and ran off and then she went into heat a second time and never came back. Wonder what ever happened...maybe she found some Tom cat at a nearby farm?
Anyway, a person at her work gave her another kitty. Alls well that ends well. So did you take any pics of kitty butts feeding?
and redhen....this doc. tells me to behave myself too or "not to scare me but I'll have another heart attack since this disease I have seems to be aggressive." That's some pretty serious stuff. I guess my new blockages are 20% in a main artery and 80% in a branch.
oh and then did I tell you all about the herniated disc in my neck and how I saw a pain management dr. last week and he wants to work out with my cardio dr. to get me off my blood thinner for 10 days...says there's a blood thinner out there that will leave my body in 24 hr.'s so I should take that one before he wants to do this epidural steroid treatment in my neck. My herniated disc is pressing on nerves, making my arms tingle, numb, and weak and since it's been going on over a year there's a strong possibility that it can damage my nerve permently so we have to get the move on with this and treat it.
First step was physical therapy...didn't work. Next step is him...the epidural. And then the last step would be surgery. ick. In the mean time I'm going to my chiro. She's opposed to anything listed above.
Next week I try to apply for utility assistance...hopefully, it's done right this time. And going back in the hospital has helped me in that aspect. Stinky but true. Still waiting on my S.S.I. and if I was approved. And did I tell you all I changed divorce lawyers? I did. She's going to do more for the benefit of myself and my children. So help us God. And I've been to a couple of meetings with women like me---don't know if I like it or not. There's 2 very outspoken women in there that are taking the conversation WAY off topic and try to dominate the session with their tough talk...I have only gotten a glimpse of thier life and struggles but wow, I try very hard not to judge but I'm glad I have not traveled in their shoes. It's hard enough traveling in my own but wow, is all I can say. I feel blessed in many ways and know God is going to carry us through this. I don't know how and I push out doubts that creep up and I bathe in the comfort I am able to acknowledge at certain times in my life, like watching my kids run through a sprinkler and then watching the little ducks partake in the sprinkler too...things like that bring great joy and comfort to my life and I know I owe that peace to my one and only God, through Jesus Christ, my Savior. Amen.
Today we went to the beach at Grandma's. It's manmade and it's green from all the algea bloom but it was still fun to spend the day with my girls and we made fish and a whale instead of a castle today and then they mutilated it with some friends they met before we left. turkeys.
and this concludes todays broadcast...see ya next time around...Have a safe and Happy 4th.
I rode pony on the beach Sunday. Third consecutive Sunday now!!
Pony wanted to keep going and going and going.
He did not want to turn around and ride back, and he wanted to buck me off because I said 'no' time to go back now.
He loves the beach.
Its hard walking through the sand, and then carrying me on his back, you'd think he'd be glad to go back, but I guess he finds the waves peaceful, but he doesn't want to go in them!
I wanna mail you something.
And its to make you smile.
Thought of it a while back, to respond to something you responded to on one of my posts
So take it in the humor, fun, put a smile on your face as its intended to be!!
Now that I said it, i have to do it, stop being the lollygagger that I am, remember i lollygagged about mailing once before?!!
You are tooo funny!!! My girls stood there as I opened your package and said, "maybe there's something for you, and me (Zoe), and Ava." ah ha ha...then they were like, "huh?" They were less than impressed. I was laughing my butt off. You flatter me though.
I'll have to pass em off to my teenage neighbor girl though...I'm a size or two up from that. But it was the thought that counted and I was SOOO happy that you'd go through any trouble to make my day!!!! I LOVED it!!!! I wish your gift would have fit on my bum though.
On mon. I went for an epidural for treatment on my herniated disc in my neck. I'm a bit sore but hoping this does the trick. I go back in 4 weeks to see if I need another shot--steroid to reduce swelling that's pushing on my nerve and makes my arms tingle, numb, sore, and weak and makes my neck hurt pretty bad. The dr. said after these treatments if that doesn't work the next step is neck surgery...so I'm praying this works because I'm in dire need of getting on with my life despite my obstacles.
I feel like my life is good no matter these obstacles and I must admit I was plagued with fatigue from new meds recently and such and let things slide but I'm really getting worried about taking care of me, my girls, and keeping my home if I don't bring in some income soon. I need to just keep working with my docs to figure this all out. I'm too young for all this crud some say and I agree but it doesn't matter...it's the hand I'm delt with and I have to deal and get on with the program.
I would appreciate if you all, my crazy chicken friends are able to say a prayer for me and my girls.
On another prayer note: My cousin, Scott, who had the small bowel transplant is yet again in the hospital and there have been treatments for rejection and now there is an abcess in his stomach and he's been hospitalized with fevers and such. There were some good times, where he was able to be out of the hospital and eat real food and celebrate his birthday with friends and was actually out of the hospital for something like 5 weeks except for routine visits. Now the dr.'s are back to scratching their heads and talking a lot about how to help him but they have not given up hope. Please keep him and his family in your prayers if you are able and remember. Thank you so much.
A happy note: My nephew's wife gave birth to their second child, Noah, the other week and me and the girls were able to visit them in the hospital and hold and love little Noah. It was a great day. We got to take care of Noah's big sister, Alayna and play on the beach for 2 days while mommy and daddy were at the hospital. Great times.
Another concern: Please pray for my Pastor's daughter who just graduated high school. She has extreme abdominal pains and the dr.'s have not found the cause as of yet and it's been a number of months and they still don't know. His wife also has Crohn's--like my cousin, but I don't feel like that's what they think their daughter is plagued with.
Also my neighbor's daughter came to me today to talk about issues with her mom. She's moving in next door with her dad and moving out of her mom's apt. Her mom is acting innapropriately and doing illegal things and I am concerned for her little brother but he's not biologically related to my neighbor...but he's a great guy and has tremendous concerns for his well being and is great to him. I hope they can have an intervention and I will make myself available to them to assist in any way I am able. Please pray for a solution. Thank you all so much and sorry I've been so busy as to keep up with you all. I miss you all so very much and miss the laughter.