RIP Peeps :(

[bayouchica]

Just awhile ago I lost my sweet Peeps.

Late last December I had a post about some weird egg stuff I found under the roost. https://www.backyardchickens.com/forum/viewtopic.php?id=26609
I checked everyone in that coop. Then a few days ago, I noticed Peeps was looking not so good.I brought her inside when we had the bad weather come thru.She was had some discomfort under her vent area & I soaked her,with no luck passing anything. She was drinking & eating a little.
All of a sudden this morning her comb was looking blue& her backside was tight. I took her out to the back of our place layed in the grass with her soaking up some sun.She passed away shortly after.
I'm a very private person, sometimes it's hard to express my feelings to anyone, especially people I can't see. I feel so guilty now cause I can't afford to take her to the vet, heck I can't even afford to go to the doctor myself.
My hubby is away at work,he won't be back till Saturday & I'm just feeling kinda bad now.

Peeps was so very special to me, she was one of the first babies hatched by my Buff Orps almost two yrs ago.
Here she is with Mama Buff

Peeps in her favorite place in the garden by the grapes last summer

 

[DrakeMaiden]

I'm so sorry, bayouchica. I know how hard it can be to lose a favorite. It's worse that your husband isn't around right now.

The best advice I have is to work on something to keep your mind off it. It isn't foolproof advice, but I found it helpful when I lost my favorite girl (duck).

Spend some time with your other birds -- they probably feel the loss too. At least mine did.

I also took some time to write down what happened to my duck, my feelings about it, and a brief memoir of her. It only helped a little at the time, but I re-read it this year and it brought back all the emotions again and it reminded me of sweet things about her that I had forgotten.

Hugs to you! I hope you take care of yourself. Do something that makes you happy and will take your mind off it temporarily. It takes time to process these things before we can move on, but dwelling never speeds it up.

 

[karri25]

I'm so sorry for you.

 

[Lunachick]

Bayouchica - I'm so sorry you lost your Peeps. Please feel better soon.

 

[Wynette]

Oh, I've got tears in my eyes reading about the memoir, DrakeMaiden.

I'm so sorry for your loss. It just breaks my heart when I hear of a loss that's so dear to your heart. Please know we all feel your pain, and I bet each & every one of us would take on some of it if we could! Hang in there, sweetie!

 

[ksacres]

Please don't make yourself feel guilty. More than a few of us are spread pretty thin. I know I couldn't afford another vet bill with the way they charge nowadays. Even if you had taken her to a vet, the chances of them knowing what was wrong and being able to fix her are slim to none.

It always hurts to lose a favorite, but you did the best you could for her and she knew it.

 

[pips&peeps]

I'm sorry for your loss.

I lost my little "Peeps" almost the same way. I think my girl got too heavy and burst her liver trying to lay an egg.

She was the best, I bet your Peeps was the same. I cried and cried. It was the middle of winter and I dug a hole under a pear tree for her. It took me over an hour because the ground was frozen and I balled the hole time.

Pick a special place to lay her to rest and you can visit her in the future to let her know what's happening.

 

[User48]

So sorry about Peeps! I'm glad you can tell her story, though, and know that you're amongst folks who "get it." How nice that you shared the last few moments of her life with her the way that you did, with the sun smiling down on both of you.

Laura

 

[hooligan]

I am so sorry for your loss, Bayou. Peeps sounded like a wonderful little girl. My thoughts are with you :aww

 

[patandchickens]

I'm so sorry to hear you lost your Peeps.

If she was the one who produced the weird rubbery blob, which seems rather likely given what has happened, please know that in all likelihood there would have been nothing much a vet could have done (except maybe extremely expensive risky surgery to 'spay' her). You kept her warm and fed and loved, that is what counts.

Hugs,

Pat