Hello, I'm relatively new to chickens, I've had them for a little more than half a year, and I need genuine advice. At the moment I have 2 young hens, though I used to have more. My original flock consisted if 5, but 3 mysteriously died at 1 month old, most likely from the shock of the change in environment. It was devastating, they were my first pets. Realizing the shock of deceased siblings could cause the others to die we got more chickens of around the same age for company. They all ended up dying. I theorize the causes were heat stress, stress, and bullying. Our chickens didn't like them. Again, it was devastating. I felt guilty for all their deaths. I just wish I would've known what to do at the time. After that we didn't get more chickens for a while. Until we thought one of our pullets had been taken away by a hawk, when she was really just hiding. We got MORE pullets. Then life was pretty good UNTIL one got sick. We think she ate something bad or had intense sour crop. Anyway by the time she showed symptoms it was too late. That one was very sad. THEN, another one ran off. She was always jumping fences and running away for the night then coming back the next day. But then one day she didn't. Then one of my all time favorite baby hens died from a hawk attack, it was the one who got away the first time. This one absolutely tore me up. She never got to lay her first egg. Now it's been 2 months and one of my hens really wants to be a mother. My sister wants more baby chicks. I don't want more innocent chickens to die. I know its normal for them to die, but there are other chicken keepers who've never even lost a chicken. I can't help feeling that maybe we aren't aren't meant for chickens although the two we have seem happy and they make me happy. It seems like everyone wants baby chicks except for me. Although it seems like they would provide a little sunshine in the gloomy clouds I've in in lately...what should I do?