So....talk about.....CANCER SUPPORT THREAD !!

[sumi]

Quote: Thank you

 

[Outpost JWB]

I can't wait @sumi! Praying for ya!

 

[Mamachic1967]

thank you for your message. it is hard. i don't know what to say otherthan I can't let go of blaming myself for this rotten disease. i connected with a socialworker today from the hospital that is helping/working with me and she said i need to change my way of thinking. that is hard to do because feel like that will never happen. i can't get past the anger. maybe it will come in time but for now i feel like i'm being punished and i don't know why. i am trying to ignore that i am sick but these **** bumps and pain are a constant reminder. i am waiting again, this time on bone and bone marrow results. i am scared i will get more bad news. i'm scared and angry and feel very overwhelmed.

 

[Mamachic1967]

thank you phil for your message. it feels like i'm going through the longest time in my life, so much waiting. i wish the shock would go away. i have lots of moments where i shake all over uncontrollably. i hear what my health team tells me and i'm working on trusting them, but i'm still very scared and uncertain about what comes next. last week they took bone and marrow to test, this also has me scared, i don't want to die, i don't want to get sicker. this is hard.

 

[Mamachic1967]

thanks

 

[sumi]

@Mamachic1967

Give yourself time to deal with this and focus on feeling better. Work through all the emotions, the anger, the fear and deal with it and put it away. I know it's hard, but keep at it. Trust your team, trust yourself!

 

[sumi]

Well, my 6 weeks was up on Thursday. Yesterday morning, got a knock on the door and wouldn't it be the postman with a registered letter? Nearly gave me a heart attack… To add insult to injury, being so early in the day, I was NOT expecting visitors and got caught with bed hair and PJ's

The letter was an important document I send off some time ago, that got returned via mail, not the biopsy results I'm waiting for. Monday, Monday, Monday?!?

 

[LittleLakePhil]

thanks

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Well, my 6 weeks was up on Thursday. Yesterday morning, got a knock on the door and wouldn't it be the postman with a registered letter? Nearly gave me a heart attack… To add insult to injury, being so early in the day, I was NOT expecting visitors and got caught with bed hair and PJ's   The letter was an important document I send off some time ago, that got returned via mail, not the biopsy results I'm waiting for. Monday, Monday, Monday?!? 

 

[LittleLakePhil]

Sumi.... Sorry your news didn't come..... They say no news is good news... But not when we're waiting for medical results..... The wait is the worst part..... Please let is know.

 

[LittleLakePhil]

thanks

Please don't blame yourself I don't care if you smoked 10 packs of cigarettes a day it's not your fault you got sick why do other people smoke all their lives and never get sick it's not something that I can explain that's in God's hands. Please hang around here we're here to help I try I tried to answer you yesterday but I couldn't I wasn't up to it and today I was busy so this is the first I've gotten around to it. But just hang out here and try to get better just work on getting yourself better but please quit trying to blame yourself it's not your fault. Put your hands in the doctors care they're the ones that know they're the ones I got me through my leukemia my bone marrow transplant Mayo gave up on me I end up having to go to U of M and they are the ones that took care of me and 20 years later I'm still here talking to you. So just hang out here with us survivors and will help you get through it.... love your friend....... Phil