Thank you all.
I do hear them in my head, that is the weirdest part, I was at work building an ambulance, and something Dad says years ago when we did a project popped in my head, and a structure my Grandfather built popped in my head, combined the two of those thoughts and I built a solution for my problem in that truck. I still swear Grandpa is riding shotgun somedays when I drive his Ford, and Dad is still in my head when I get messy in his Chevy lol Just to give you an idea how much I have been going places lately, in three months I have put almost 6 thousand (6,000) miles on Dad's Chevy alone. It's been crazy.
Those three trucks, I keep talking about trading one in, or selling them, and then I see the vehicle I want to replace them, and I can't do it. I just hope, life willing, that I can pass one on to my kid, if I have any, and after that another to my grandkid. So I am resigned to the fact that I get horrible gas mileage, and I love all of them as if they were pets. The good part about three trucks, and me being me, I haul stuff almost every day of the week, so it's not like they are just sitting there. The other thing, I am 6 ft 3 inches, and I am an outdoors-man, so I am no tiny person, trucks are just more comfortable for me. I have a farm, I run a business, I have a day job, and I work hard with those trucks, so they stay.
I have learned a lot in the last few months about life, family, living, I am now propelled in life to make some changes, there are some people that won't be happy about it, and some that will cheer me on, I am going to have to work harder, think smarter, and be tougher then I have ever been, but if it puts me in the good life, I shall be plenty a happy man. I may not have kids, but I am an assistant scoutmaster, and an Eagle Scout, and I can hope to pass some of my knowledge on to these boys, even if I have no kin of my own, so that they become better people than I could ever be, and so my Father, Grandfather, and family will be ever proud of me, and my legacy lives on as strong as the two men I have lost to cancer, that will be my fight against cancer, and No-Shave November, I have a great beard still going from then! lol Now off for a cold beer and a think, a little Steinbeck before bed, and sleep, then my day begins again. Sorry for my rant, just a lot on the brain lately.