I am home happy to be home but sad at the outcome of my journey to Colorado the world lost an amazing man and I have a huge hole in my heart. I am happy that I will be here for the easter hatch.
Your poor heart, what a hard trip. I am sure the world is truly lesser now, but better because he was here in the first place! I always feel so much worse after a death how it seems the rest of the world keeps going when mine is so broken. It gets better, I am not sure how, it just does. I can't say it is time or closure or any quantifiable reason, it just does, some how.
I hope the hatch-a-long is a small joy, distraction, in your time of grief.