The Front Porch Swing

And sometimes a person isn't supposed to have anyone at all. I really feel like that is the case with me now in my life. I had a husband once and I had a few relationships but now I can't even wrap my mind around co-existing with a man any longer. I just feel like that's not something meant for me any longer and I'm pretty content with that thought. Back when life was tough and raising three boys by myself was so hard, I could have used help and a companion, but now I just don't need one anymore.

The thought just never crosses my mind anymore, thank the good Lord! It used to cross it far too often and I worried all the time because I was lonely and felt like life was not complete unless you had someone to love you...then I realized I had Someone all along and He loves me better than anyone ever could or has. Now I just don't need that other kind of love and that's a relief for me.
You know there is a big difference between being alone and being lonely. When I get lonely I search out people to hang with... Not necessarily friends either.

When I lived at my house I had a spot in the local restaurant that I would go most days between breakfast and lunch.... Have some coffee and sit and write or draw. That place was marvelous because people would come and go some were staying at the hotel which is part of the restaurant. I would strike up friendly conversations here and there. Gave some sight seeing pointers to some of them some history to others....

Some of the conversations were very interesting and I am saving those for an Ebook to publish.

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You know there is a big difference between being alone and being lonely. When I get lonely I search out people to hang with... Not necessarily friends either.

When I lived at my house I had a spot in the local restaurant that I would go most days between breakfast and lunch.... Have some coffee and sit and write or draw. That place was marvelous because people would come and go some were staying at the hotel which is part of the restaurant. I would strike up friendly conversations here and there. Gave some sight seeing pointers to some of them some history to others....

Some of the conversations were very interesting and I am saving those for an Ebook to publish.

deb0
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Yes! And now when I get lonely it's most often for good girl chatter and not so much for the company of menfolk. I'm like an old hen who is no longer in lay......just no patience for a rooster at all. Don't really even want one in the same coop with me as the crowing irritates my nerves.

Don't mean to sound like I don't like men but other than talking about farming and such, we really don't have anything in common anymore when mating is no longer on the menu. I'm way more comfortable with men than women, for the most part, but as I aged I got less tolerant of tomfoolery and stubborn ol' coots. Probably because now I'M a stubborn ol' coot....
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Yes! And now when I get lonely it's most often for good girl chatter and not so much for the company of menfolk. I'm like an old hen who is no longer in lay......just no patience for a rooster at all. Don't really even want one in the same coop with me as the crowing irritates my nerves.

Don't mean to sound like I don't like men but other than talking about farming and such, we really don't have anything in common anymore when mating is no longer on the menu. I'm way more comfortable with men than women, for the most part, but as I aged I got less tolerant of tomfoolery and stubborn ol' coots. Probably because now I'M a stubborn ol' coot....
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I never been a farmer.... But I love talking about machinery and mechinisms and how to build things and uses for discarded stuff. But NEVER tell me I cant do something.... not in my vocabulary. even now when i use a walker to get around I can still lift a 125 lb bale of hay.... I may not be able to walk around with it but I can get iT on a wagon or in a feed bin.

Its ok to wish for help but much better to rely on yourself.

deb
 
Oh I love it.... I hope you are friends with your neighbors or have quite a distance between you.... Guineas are incredibly entertaining.... and after their first year not sooo loud but they are loud in the decible range....

deb "Whos last flock had 10 guineas"
My neighbors love me! Years of bribing them with cups of sugar, home-cooked meals and dog/house-sitting services has given me loads of leeway with them when it comes to the chickens. Nowadays, if I really don't want them mad at me for bringing home new birds, I take over small baskets of eggs and herbs. Nothing says neighborly love like the ingredients for a quiche!
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I would love to have some turkeys. We have wild ones that come up to the barn and eat the feed the horses waste but I want some tame ones. OH HONNNNEEEEY....how about some turkeys? I can feel a new turkey habitat coming to my house. hehehe.
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I'm with you there! Man, if I had the heart to raise turkeys again, I'd do it in a beat. Last year, when my turkeys died (weakened immune systems from avian pox and bad weather did them in), I was devastated. I don't think I could do it again so soon. The expense was hefty, too, so I'm not so sure. I'll have more income coming in this year, but I need to save some money up (and pay off student loans).

I loved my turkeys, though! Tom and Jenny were so sweet and loved to hop up on my leg to eat. I might raise turkeys in a few years, but for now, I need to focus on the chickens and my new guineas.
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