Aella felt his tears.Ciro really let himself go now.
Truth be told, he couldn’t stop it if he tried.
He needed to cry. He needed to cry for his sisters, his mother, his friends, his acquaintances, his streets, his neighborhood, his world, and this one too. What was it about all of those people and places that he was crying over? Everything and nothing at all.
But these tears were multifaceted.
They weren't just for him and his.
With Ciro, they never were.
Silent, though. Ciro had taught himself long ago to be a silent crier.
Because when someone broke your heart with the words they found you worthy of sharing with, you needed them to know that you were hearing them, not yourself as your lungs heaved and throat spasmed. When the only response you could offer was to spill out rivulets of glimmering grief, you were listening to them alone.
Sure, sometimes they didn't like it anyway. No one could know what they'd gone through, and no one had a right to mourn their situation but them.
Regardless, the soundless keener cared- so much more than the world wanted to let him.
But he smiled through his tears as he found hers.
It wasn't a happy smile, nor was it a miserable one. Simply, there was nothing more to it than being an expression.
Not yet, anyway.
“Are you, Aella?”
Thing was, he put so much effort into enunciating those three words that his accent was all but stripped from them, and, combined with the constrictive swelling of his glottis, it produced an articulation that was something entirely different. Surprised even Ciro himself, for sure, but it definitely got the point across.
The silent tears that hurt so much more then full on sobbing. Where your chest and throat ached for hours after trying to keep yourself so silent. The trembling. The persistent migraine that never failed to blossom. It always seemed to hurt worse then the full on scream-sobbing that tore at your throat.
She found herself covering her mouth with both her hands at his choked words, her teeth biting her lip until it bled. There was no was she was going to break.
She couldn't.
21 years.
Twenty one agonizing years, and yet she could count maybe a handful of times she had let another see her tears. Twenty one years and every single time she looked in the mirror and covered her hazy and reddened eyes with a grin that could fool just about anyone. Twenty one years and every time she had wanted to scream so hard she couldn't speak, she had muffled it and silenced herself. Twenty one years and rarely did anyone see her cry.
And there she was breaking in front of a stranger. She hadn't even realized she had until she felt the uncomfortable dampness on the sleeves of her shirt and tasted the saltiness. They both cried for seperate reasons, yet they were so similar. He wept for himself, for his world, for his family. She wept for him, for herself, for everything that the little alcohol in her system decided to painfully remind her of. Maybe it was a good judgement of character, maybe it painfully showed her selfishness and his selflessness. But, in the moment, did it really even matter?
"Are any of us?" She directed her gaze back to him, just barely muffling a choked sob that broke through as her hands came away from her mouth. A neatly perfected grin tried to appear, the ghost of it just barely dancing across her features, but instead it was replaced by a twisted smile, betraying more then she would have liked if she saw it herself.
Suddenly her gaze fell on his hands.
Her own hand out and grabbed one of them out of sheer impulse.
It surprised even her, even though she knew the limits of her impulse control.
And she could've sworn she was going to say something. She was, in all honesty. She was going to reassure him that it was going to be okay, that they where going to be okay. But all to quickly she felt what it actually felt like to hold a persons hand, not a drunken grab or an attempt to stop someone from going somewhere but holding a sober person's hand.
That in it's self forced a sob from her throat.