Master of deception, clouding my perception
Changing all my chemistry
Repurposing rejection, into the perfect weapon
To keep me living anxiously
Assuming bad intentions
So I'll keep second guessing
'Til everyone's the enemy
Why can't I ever let me win?
Why can't I take a compliment?
'Cause everyone says the nicest things
But I'm never good enough for me
Why can't I let myself feel loved?
Am I afraid I'll mess it up?
Something is broken in my brain
I'll never be good enough for me
'Cause I want to know
If it all crashed down tonight
Would you run towards the riptide
To forget what you can't fight?
Oh, I want to know
If you couldn't stop the tide
Would you call into the distance?
Would you hope that I'm alive