The Moonshiner's Leghorns

Our climate is listed as a "humid subtropical climate." But the winters with the central heat going are very dry so in the winter I have to add some water the sportsman. During the spring/summers I run it completely dry. Then lockdown as normal in the Genesis hatchers.
 
My docs have tried to write me benzos since I was a kid for my panic disorder, but that has always been my mom's drug of choice so I was always afraid of addiction.

Music is super therapeutic for me too!
Awwww I’m sorry. Yeah, they added Klonopin in the hospital after consulting with my regular/outside psychiatrist and I want to get off it so bad LOL they only added it towards the end of my stay so I haven’t been on it long at all and it’s only a tiny dose but still… I do NOT want to be on ANYTHING addictive. Even if it’s only a slight chance. Just… NO. LOL plus it’s not even working for me LOL so yeah. But I am also very afraid of addiction especially since I have alcoholism on both sides of my family and I already have an addictive personality and am extremely addicted to several seemingly minor things already (not drugs or alcohol) so it wouldn’t take much for me to actually get addicted to something even if I never ever ever wanted to. I’ve never even tried anything except edibles like twice and alcohol like 5-10 times max LOL but yet I’m still so scared of it. And I know it sounds ridiculous but caffeine, for example, is ruining my life. I’m not even being dramatic… the huge crash after the mania leads to major depression and negative thoughts and self talk and then makes me want to buy dangerous things. Obviously the caffeine does not CAUSE these thoughts but it exacerbates them. So I am working on quitting caffeine COMPLETELY because I have already experimented with just having less and it doesn’t work for me but I keep going back to it. 4 months was my longest so far. And half of that was in the hospital where they didn’t have any but still. But it is literally to the point where I am consuming it despite the consequences (self sabotaging) and to where I will sometimes literally hide it from people like drink a can of Mtn Dew in the bathroom type thing. Almost like a real addiction. But I know caffeine can’t be. And I’m not saying it’s as bad or comparable, just noting similar behaviors. But still. Ridiculous. Especially considering I have so many people rooting for me and I don’t just mean friends and family. I literally have a whole entire team of professionals behind me plus Clubhouse people. Yet I consistently fail. ANYWAY! THIS is why I want to get off the Klonopin.

And yeah music is the best LOL
 
Awwww I’m sorry. Yeah, they added Klonopin in the hospital after consulting with my regular/outside psychiatrist and I want to get off it so bad LOL they only added it towards the end of my stay so I haven’t been on it long at all and it’s only a tiny dose but still… I do NOT want to be on ANYTHING addictive. Even if it’s only a slight chance. Just… NO. LOL plus it’s not even working for me LOL so yeah. But I am also very afraid of addiction especially since I have alcoholism on both sides of my family and I already have an addictive personality and am extremely addicted to several seemingly minor things already (not drugs or alcohol) so it wouldn’t take much for me to actually get addicted to something even if I never ever ever wanted to. I’ve never even tried anything except edibles like twice and alcohol like 5-10 times max LOL but yet I’m still so scared of it. And I know it sounds ridiculous but caffeine, for example, is ruining my life. I’m not even being dramatic… the huge crash after the mania leads to major depression and negative thoughts and self talk and then makes me want to buy dangerous things. Obviously the caffeine does not CAUSE these thoughts but it exacerbates them. So I am working on quitting caffeine COMPLETELY because I have already experimented with just having less and it doesn’t work for me but I keep going back to it. 4 months was my longest so far. And half of that was in the hospital where they didn’t have any but still. But it is literally to the point where I am consuming it despite the consequences (self sabotaging) and to where I will sometimes literally hide it from people like drink a can of Mtn Dew in the bathroom type thing. Almost like a real addiction. But I know caffeine can’t be. And I’m not saying it’s as bad or comparable, just noting similar behaviors. But still. Ridiculous. Especially considering I have so many people rooting for me and I don’t just mean friends and family. I literally have a whole entire team of professionals behind me plus Clubhouse people. Yet I consistently fail. ANYWAY! THIS is why I want to get off the Klonopin.

And yeah music is the best LOL
I am in the same boat with caffeine, but where I work nightshift I have a hard time going without it. It exacerbates my panic disorder really bad and I get chest pain, heart palpitations (PVCs), and my heart races. My goal is to wean myself down now that my seasonal depression is chilling out. Yay spring!

I feel you on the addictive personality and wanting to avoid addictive substances. Sounds like you have a pretty level head on your shoulders. :D
 
For the life of me, it will not let me quote your post @BlindLemonChicken , but sounds like a good plan emptying the water bottle and letting the incubator dry out. The eggs will do much better developing on the dryer side, trust me. I have lost many a chick due to excess moisture during hatching, caused by too high overall humidity during incubation. I finally experimented with a dryer incubation method and I will NEVER go back to traditional "recommended" humidities again. Straight up.
 
For the life of me, it will not let me quote your post @BlindLemonChicken , but sounds like a good plan emptying the water bottle and letting the incubator dry out. The eggs will do much better developing on the dryer side, trust me. I have lost many a chick due to excess moisture during hatching, caused by too high overall humidity during incubation. I finally experimented with a dryer incubation method and I will NEVER go back to traditional "recommended" humidities again. Straight up.
Well thank you for your help! I followed the manual instructions but I suspect the manual doesn’t account for climate and ours is similar to yours—temperate rainforest.
 
I am in the same boat with caffeine, but where I work nightshift I have a hard time going without it. It exacerbates my panic disorder really bad and I get chest pain, heart palpitations (PVCs), and my heart races. My goal is to wean myself down now that my seasonal depression is chilling out. Yay spring!

I feel you on the addictive personality and wanting to avoid addictive substances. Sounds like you have a pretty level head on your shoulders. :D
Yeah, mine makes my anxiety so much worse too!!!!!!!! And my anxiety is already really bad LOL I need to wean myself off of it too. I started again HARD immediately after getting out of the hospital on the 26th of February so it’s been like a week and a half but I am already fully addicted again and tried going without yesterday and got a killer headache lol SO I guess I either have to go slowly or just go cold turkey and deal with the headaches. But the latter is hard to do when I have to be in a PHP and paying attention/focusing. LOL so idk. But it’s also insanely expensive so I might just go cold turkey LOL

And thank you!!!!!!!!! I try!!!!!!!! LOL I think I will ask about getting off of it.

I have a couple other meds I want to get off of for various other reasons not because they are addictive though lol

So yeah.
 

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