I battle clinical depression too. Ever since I was in my 20s. It's a struggle. Keeping busy and staying on my meds is key for me.Yep much... I battle depression big time... Clinically Depressed... Means long term.... Part of what aided me to gain so much weight. A way to hide from the world. I call it my onion layers... layers of physical separation from the world... aiding in my emotional separation from the world....
Each layer is somewhat painful to remove... Incresing my feeling of vunuralbility and decreasing my physical perception of strength. Been through this roller coaster before... But never have I lost so much in so little time.
Emotions can make you feel sick if you arent used to exposing them. At least for me. The best way I can express them is in written form. I stumble on actual communicaiton.
Going home is like going back to my Centere... Once back in that world I find my ground and the depression eases. I cant go though till I Stabilize my weight loss. Which likely will fit into my estimated time frame of one or two months after the new year.
deb