I don't have my own thread where people come by and say HI, and I reply hi back and end up with a billion posts. I have to work for what I get Bruce. Every single one.
I do post and I am out to do my personal best. That's how I handle everything in my life. My first few years on BYC, barely posted at all. I didn't know how do much with a computer, didn't know many people. My first friends were sourland & Alaskan and I've enjoyed their "company" ever since.
Everything I do in my life, I am geared to do better than I DID before. I don't expect rewards or adoration. If no one claps or whistles or puts a a wreath of roses around my neck, I just continue on my way.
A very good friend turned up as a show runner for me. Kept everyone informed about how many more posts I needed to to reach 100,000. I have never forgotten that kindness of doing so. It made achieving my goal so much more enjoyable. When I hit that mark, I told NIfty I wasn't done yet. I have no idea how high it will go, or when /if I'll be too worn out to keep going. What happens, happens.
'Good enough"- as my brother says about "government work," WAS NEVER good enough for me. To be frank I think this hard drive I had to better myself is because no one thought I was worth the time of day when I was young. I was picked on by neighbor kids, kids in physical ed, my own relatives. I was extremely shy & fearful after some incident when I was 5 years old.
Sorry for ranting but, my son just called me and like last Sunday's call just was very sarcastic.He's mad that I haven't had the $$$ to remodel the house. I was just a dog groomer and never felt it was worth more than $ 10. to do so. I charged $ 10. when I was 16 and trimming in our basement. I charged $ 10. when at 19 I had my own grooming salon. I was so excited to have the money for rent, electric, heat and most of all paying hefty amount for insurance. Being new to the business world, I didn't realize my insurance payments were just coverage for the plate glass windows.