Losing a parent is epic. My condolences. Nary a day goes by that I don't think about mine, but after many years it's more with wistfulness than sorrow. As in "Gee, Mom would've really like this." "I wish Dad could see this." My favorite, though, is "Damn! I'm channeling El again!" when I catch myself parroting Mom.

Sorry Parents are not with you any more!