I am nearly a year late for this discussion, but I can't help but reply. I know the feeling SO well, of regretting an action, or inaction, that cost some little creature its life. There is no comfort to be found! It almost makes it worse when people say things that ease my conscience for a moment, because then I remember that, while I am seeking to excuse myself, there is no comfort for my ... pet. My little friend, who relied upon me. And, yes, I do more than most people would do. But, what difference does it make, if I don't do enough, or don't do it right? Same outcome as if I had done nothing. Or worse, maybe, because I prolonged the suffering. It just SUCKS. That's all. I agonize over all of them! Good Lord, I can drive myself crazy, thinking about the lives of commercial laying hens, or meat birds, or dairy calves, or even just the day old chicks, shipped through the mail. They must be so cold, and afraid, and they have no way to understand. I feel so much rage, and so much helpless impotence. Truly, I could make myself crazy with grief, did I not refuse to think of the fate of animals, mine and not mine. But, the banishing of the thoughts brings with it its own allotment of misery and guilt. I love them so much,and they are so deserving! But, my lack of money, veterinary education, "free time," space, and youthful endurance shackle my ability to give them everything they need and to which they should be entitled. Yes. I know. Humans are suffering, too. I guess I could add them to the cast of characters that keep me awake at night. But, plenty of people devote themselves to helping humans in need. I trust those people to do what I cannot. To be honest, I would rather help critters than most people, anyway. They always do their best for themselves and their families. Buy, I am way off on a rant/blather. Forgive me. I found this post, searching for help with a little duckling that cannot walk on it's own. I hope I can save him! He is only days old, and loves to cuddle. Thank you for giving me a chance to put in words, what I have grieved over, but never really fully expressed. I am sorry if I made anyone feel bad.
