Several months ago, I went into my coop to find one of my runners dead. Over the course of the next couple weeks I had others start to show disturbing symptoms, similar to botulism, but not as severe and it went away within a couple days with each duck. I had recently moved their poultry netting to a different area and it was a lot more boggy over there. I think there was something toxic that they got into.
Haven't had any issues after moving their fencing, and you can bet your boots I won't put their fencing over there again.
I'm very sorry to hear about your ducks. I don't blame you at all for crying. It can hurt a lot.