at least today I do not have to suffer dry eyes in class like i normally do.
a twisting pain in my gut
the sky is crying today too
Last night i broke up with John.... we both don't want to. but I want to see what dating other guys are like (there is a guy Ean that i like). and John needs to work on getting healthy.
Its hard to do that when you love some one so bad.
-sigh- chickens have it easy. They don't have to date or have super complex emotions.
It is weird. almost 4 years we have been dating. it scares the h*ll out of me of life without him always there.
we are not mad at each other or anything. we plan to be friends at least and still talk.
It will be weird having him no longer living in the basement at the house. I don't know when he or my parents plan to have him move out.
I wish i had my dog or chicken to hug. These emotions are not fun.