I been busy being moody, improving every day. I still chat with John every day and when we talk we sometimes have 'slip ups' in our conversation or there is the awkward silence where normally spoken responses are witheld. The pain is still there and the feelings towards each other is still the same. I just need to see what else is out there.
I have been trying to catch up on homework i have become behind on.
Now that my status is single i suddenly know how my hens feel like when there are too many roosters.... One good guy friend already made a pass, it annoyed me because i'm not ready to see some of my guyfriends in that light.... .... and the guy i do like is enjoying hanging out more.
We went to a ball on saturday evening and him and my friend had fun trying to teach me how to dance.... the hot guy i like is pretty good at dancing.... and oddly him being super tall didn't seem an issue at the dance. (me, 5'1", him 6'3") his new blue hawk brings out the blue in his eyes.... its always hard not to stare.... i think i got the spring fever.
I sorta feel like i am chasing something out of my league and can't believe i have caught the interest of such a nice guy.
Dad had to move Pidgin and BB out of the tractor to another tractor because the BLRW hen and rooster were beating them up. the other 2 breeds sound like they are settling in ok, the Light Sussex eat alot and lay like an egg per day. but i knew these are older birds and wanted them for future breeding, not crazy egg laying. that is what my mutts are for, hybrid vigor.
I miss my birds. I miss my dogs. The sun is coming out earlier and the sunny days are starting to feel good.
The sun is important for depression and mood disorders, hopefully you will have all your hard work and anxiety behind you soon and you can get home to the things you enjoy and miss so much!! take care of YOURSELF!!! very important!! ( do I sound like a mom??)
My daughter just turned 25 this month, we have had lots of these discussions!! And FWIW I miss HER very much!!

Hugs to you!!!